Mafia's Curves novel Chapter 22

FALLON'S POV

I pulled back from the kiss and pushed his chest slightly, "no Hayden" I say meeting his regretful eyes.

"I won't let anyone hurt you baby. Trust me" he says, we heard the door open and close. Thank god the guys left us, it is time we talk about everything, to clear out thing and maybe move on.

I looked at him with tears in my eyes, he still had his arms wrapped around my waist, "how can I trust you Hayden? Tell me!" I say softly. He looked down not meeting my eyes, "after everything I have been through? How do you wish me to believe you? I was broken Hade, I am broken. You ripped a part of me in such away that I cannot piece myself together." I say sobbing in his chest, he wrapped his arms around my form and tucked his face on my head.

"I am so sorry baby! I was being a thickheaded jerk. My pride drowned me, baby. I lost the only good thing that happened to me, my chance of happiness. I lost you" he said in a strained voice tightening his hold on me, I continued to sob.

"I don't know Hayden, I don't know anything anymore. I don't know if I can forgive you or even if I did I don't know how I will forget those awful things. I am so lost Hayden. Why did you do that? Why did you betray me like that? I didn't even do anything to you!" I said now full on crying. Remembering all those months I stayed up all night crying myself to sleep, not eating anything, felt no emotion. I was just existing, breathing because I had to.

"I know, I know! And no matter how many times I apologise, it won't make it up for all the pain I have caused you. Baby please! Give me a chance! I'll spend every second of my life making it up to you. I didn't realise how much you mean to me untill I lost you. Now that I have you, dandelion, to make amends, I'll will give my life to save yours even if we're not together!" He pleaded. He should know the entire truth, I don't know if he will forgive me for the mistake I made. I told myself.

"I was pregnant" I told him, I didn't dare look him in the eyes. His hold loosen on me. There was a long pause, all sorts of thoughts swirling my head. It felt like eternity, "y-you were p-pre-pregnant with m-my child?" He asked, he sounded as if all the air was sucked out of his lunge.

"That day I came early because I wanted to surprise you with the news.." I said looking anywhere but at him. He stumbled back, "I need to sit" he mumbled to himself, pulling a chair near him and sitting. He looked in daze, no emotion seeped through, he didn't have a hard face just plain.

But his eyes told a different story; pain, sorrow, regret, anger, loss and disgust. He looked back at me with same eyes, "where is my child?" He asked, the only question I dreaded. I burst into tears, not being able to utter a single syllable, a hand tugged me and I sat on top of him crying. He rocked me, "s-she didn't make it!" I began weeping. That horrifying scene suddenly flashed before me. His hands dropped to his side, "h-how?" He asked looking devastated.

I looked at him and bit my lips, "I was under too much pressure. I-I wasn't able to eat or l-look after ou-our baby. In the f-fifth month.." I stuttered in between my crying then I began full on wailing, "I had a miscarriage, Hayden.." I looked at him dead in the eyes. His eyes were red, tears streaming down his face, "I w-woke up to immense pain in my stomach. There was all blood, Hayden. So much blood!!" I said loudly and resumed crying, "I was taken to the hospital by my neighbors. The doctor said th-that she died in my womb due to lack of nourishment and being in severe stress. I was devastated, Hayden. She was the only one left in my life!! How did I let her die? I am not a good mother at all! How can a mother kill her own child?" I said in between my weeping. All those pressure, I couldn't take it. I went limp in the arms of my love and darkness took over me.

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My eyes fluttered opened every so softly, I was greeted by darkness. My head was throabing in pain, I groaned and began to sit up. I looked to the side it was dark outside as well, the same calmness greeted me, the moon shining brightly. Her rays softly caressing everything it touched, her children, the stars gathered around her as if a mother telling her kid's a story.