Psycho - Headless Horsemen MC novel Chapter 15

- Harley -

"Can I go for a ride tomorrow?" I smile and place my hands into Jax's, I love how big his hands are they mine look tiny. "I'm going to be busy tomorrow, so I'm not sure" I frown when he says it, but I'm also glad it won't be him, he's the last person I want to hurt in all of this, "Why can't I take someone else?" I question him trying to not act suspicious if he catches on I won't be able to protect them.. from myself.

"Because I don't trust anyone else" He growls while saying it and I laugh, I love how overprotective he is as if anyone going to hurt me besides myself. "You really think I won't be able to protect myself?" I smirk and raise an eyebrow at him, "Fine who do you want to take?" He asks I stay quiet for a few seconds, who do I want to take?

That I won't mind hurting and then the name comes into my mind and I smile at the thought, paybacks a bitch, "Gunner" I say with a smile, he looks a little confused by my answer, as far as hes concerned I'm about ready to kill Gunner and wear his skin as a coat, mostly true but It won't be tomorrow. "Gunner?" He asks as if he thinks he heard me wrong the first time.

"Yep," I say as I smile at him, "Harley youre not taking Gunner" he shakes his head and lets go of my hands "Why not?" I frown and cross my arms over my chest like a damn child. "Because I'm afraid you kill him" I laugh when I hear him admit it, I shake my head before answering "I pinky promise I won't kill him" He holds his pinky out to me "Pinky promise you won't kill my best friend" I wrap my pinky finger around his and tighten it, "I pinky promise".

I place my head onto his chest and listen to his heartbeat as I let myself start to fall asleep, I need as much rest as I can get before tomorrow morning. His fingers run through my hair, as I instantly relax to his touch. I feel a stab of pain in my heart thinking about tomorrow, I don't want to leave but I need to, I'm a monster, he must have been lying when he said I wasn't one. I know I am a monster and nobody wants a monster in their life. I can't hurt him, he's better off without me, everyone is.

I wake up after tossing and turning all night and look over at the clock and groan when i see the time, 5:15 am, good enough. I slide out of Jax's tight grip around my body and get in the shower quickly washing myself as quietly as I can. I get dressed and throw my shit in a bag including one of Jax's shirts I can't help myself.

I walk over and look at Jax sleeping peacefully on the bed, he looks at peace, I don't think I've ever seen him this calm before, I brush my fingers over his face moving the hair that had fallen over his skin during the night and leave a soft kiss on his cheek careful not to wake him up, I turn around and write a note on some paper.

"What happens in Vegas stays in Vegas" I place my phone next to it before making my way downstairs. I walk down to the main room and see Gunner and Shelby sitting at a table drinking coffee, I march over and Gunners eyes nearly pop out of his head when he sees me, "Get your shit together we ride in 5" He goes to protest but I look him dead in the eyes, "Jax knows get on your fucking bike, Gunner" He nods and kisses Shelby on her cheek before making his way out the wooden doors.

I go to turn around but I feel a small hand on my wrist, I turn around to Shelby who looks extremely worried. "I'm not going to kill him Shelbs, he will be back soon, I promise" I go to walk away again but her hand doesn't leave my wrist.

"Will you be back too?", She knows when I'm lying to her but I don't want to tell anyone anything, I need to leave. All I do is bring darkness to everyone who surrounds me, like an angel of death, "I'll see you later Shelbs" giving her a soft smile, I shake her hand off of my wrist before giving her a quick hug, making my way outside to see Gunner already on his bike.

"Where are we going?" I say nothing and get on my bike starting it up before pulling out of the compound. After riding for a short amount of time we pull up to the house the Shelby and I were moving into before the lockdown. We both get off our bikes as I make my way over to the door unlocking it, Gunner close behind.