A Gamma's Revenge (Zalia) novel Chapter 351

Chapter 351 Be Careful
Mateja’s p.o.v.

Clover’s questions keep me tied to my memories, memories that make no sense to me at all.

Echo has tried to unlock those memories, but even she can’t find them. It is as if everything connected to my Father is gone, but I have no idea how that is possible.

I never see anything in my memories; no faces, no buildings, no flora or fauna. I don’t hear anything either; no voices, no animals, just soft murmurs but nothing solid. There is no scent in my memories, just feelings.

The oldest memory Echo could find was of the day that my Mother told me that Dad was dead and every other memory since that day.

My memories of life with just my Mother, of life with Lucas’ Father and Lucas as a baby and of course my life after Lucas’ Father left. None of those memories are sad or bad, but they aren’t good memories either.

But the memories I would love to move to that place that hold the memories of Dad, are the ones after June escaped from Lucas’ clutches. Let’s hope that I can find out how my other memories ended up there and send these other memories there.

“How can someone forget a part of their life? I mean, all I remember are feelings and nothing else.” I ask, not expecting an answer from anyone.

“Poison.” Clover responds and I know I am not the only one that is wondering if she has a screw loose.

“There is a poison that can make you forget everything that happened before you ingested the poison, there is an antidote but it is a tricky antidote.” Clover says.

Amir still hasn’t let go of me and I take advantage of that by burying my face in his chest, because I know that there is only one person that could have given me that poison. Now all I need to find out is why she gave it to me.

“Okay. You say that there is an antidote, why is it a tricky one?” Amir asks the question that I am afraid of asking.

“Not only does Mateja need another poison, she also needs her fated Mate to mark her at the Full Moon after she has taken the second poison.” Clover says and my heart stops beating for a moment.

I never found my fated Mate and I doubt I will ever find him, I am already forty nine years old. My memories will probably stay buried for the rest of my life, I will never find out why my Mother gave me that poison.

“Calm down, Mateja. This changes nothing, you have already lived so long without those memories. I understand that you want to remember and answers, but panicking won’t help.” I hear Amir whisper into my hair.

I concentrate on Amir’s heartbeat, I need something to focus on to keep myself from going nuts, to keep me grounded.

My worries about my memories can wait. Now I want to take down Lucas and find out how much my Mother knew about his plans, if she even helped him plan any of this.