A Luna for the Lycan King novel Chapter 44

Darren

I was over–the–moon excited. Allissa was pregnant! We were going to have a child. But then I realized what I had just promised her. She was carrying our pup and still wanted to go and fight. I felt all of my emotions struggling inside of me. I felt everything, but one of the biggest was fear.

So much fear gripped me. If something happened to her and she ended up losing our pup, how would she handle it? She had already lost a pup not too long ago. Something like this would be devastating. I understood her reasonings, honestly, I really did. If the roles were reversed, I would want to be by her side, too. But we needed to talk about this.

I reached out, pulling her to my chest. “Ally, you keep giving me so much. You are spoiling me, and I’m turning into a greedy child. I love you, and I can’t wait to meet our baby.” I kissed the top of her head, breathing in her scent. “We need to talk. Please, listen to what I have to say. This is a discussion, my love, not a fight.”

“Okay.” I listened to her quiet voice and looked down at her beautiful eyes. I could see she was trying to read me, and I wanted her to know that, above everything else, I was overjoyed with her being pregnant. I lifted her in the air and kissed her stomach over her dress. Her sweet giggle filled the air as I carried her to our bed. As I gently lowered her onto the soft mattress, I cradled her in my arms, my gaze never leaving her face. In that moment, all I wanted was for her to see me, to truly

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It had been years since I was able to control my emotions. I could speak with her and not overreact. At times it was foreign and I expected myself to lash out. But I felt the control within. The control that came because of her.

“Ally, I understand why you want to fight. I know you want to be there to watch over me. The instinct to protect one another is strong for a reason. I just want you to think about this with me… if something were to happen, and you lost our pup because of it-” I trailed off, trying to think how to explain. I didn’t want her to think I would blame her, but that she would be blaming herself. “You would carry that with you, wouldn’t you? You would blame yourself, and it would destroy you. We will be in the thick of war soon I won’t be around as much, and if something like that happened …” I frowned as I studied her eyes. “Carrying a life inside of you is something I can’t even fathom. I can’t imagine what it is like. And if something happens… I don’t want it to destroy you.”

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Did she truly comprehend the gravity of my words? It wasn’t just the life of our precious pup that I was fighting to protect, but hers as well. If she were to lose our pup in battle, I feared it would shatter her spirit beyond repair. The thought alone made my heart ache.

She was silent. I couldn’t tell what she was thinking. She did understand that eventually she wouldn’t be able to physically fight anyway, right? This war wasn’t going to be over soon. I would take months, if not years. The only thing going in our favor was the alliance. Because there were so many of us, we might be able to overthrow the vampires faster. Though it would still take time to help establish a new order, even with their past king.

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“Forget about my curse. That isn’t my main concern. I’m worried about you… you are my biggest concern. You are the one I’m focused on. If we lose our pup, I’ll be sad, but it’ll be okay as long as I have you. I don’t want you hurting and beating yourself up. That would be more painful to me than anything.” I reached my hand out, taking hers in mine. The warmth of her touch sent a shiver down my spine. The connection between us was special. I knew I would never have anything like this ever again. You didn’t find this twice in your lifetime. It was as if she were the other piece of me. We were two puzzle pieces, and together we were a perfect fit. “I need you, Ally … forever. This love that we share is the greatest weapon we could ever have. I know that I will always find my way back to you. So I don’t want you to worry about me. Taking care of yourself … that is the best way to protect me.”

I brought her hands to my lips, kissing her soft, delicious skin. I would have to go to war after recently finding my mate. She hadn’t even been crowned yet, though the time was approaching soon. A crown that was always supposed to be hers. I watched as a small smile reached her lips.

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