A weekend with the Alpha novel Chapter 107

Ivan's interpretation of the first ritual had brought about the success of it, but the second one, which he had interpreted, felt impossible. According to his interpretation, the marking would take place when the lunar eclipse was at its apex. For the lunar eclipse to be at its apex, I had to be in my wolf form.

The lunar eclipse had a different effect on werewolves as compared to the other full moon shifts. On the lunar eclipse, our wolves would have complete control over their form with minds of their own to do what they liked. I would be in my wolf's form, where I would have little to no control. Unless Ron, my wolf, would give me control (which never happens when he takes over), I could do nothing.

Ron had always had a mind of his own. Three years ago, when he last took over control, was a disaster. He attacked and terrified the entire pack and he didn't stop until Ivan forced him out of the lights. I haven't given him control since then.

Knowing that Ron would be in control had stayed on my mind since we did the first ritual two months ago. With the wolf in control, I would not guarantee what he would do once he takes over. He could turn aggressive and vicious or calm, but knowing I had kept him shut up these past years, I didn't know if he would be so calm.

Sesi insisted I explain the reality to Zera, which I did, and when she asked what the probability of her getting hurt was, I told her it was high.

Zera coming around for the second ritual wasn't as easy as it seemed. She was terrified, and I was scared as well. My wolf, Ron, was a ruthless side of me. He was bloodthirsty and would attack every and anyone in his way. I never let him come onto the surface, and even when in my wolf form, I have always retained control.

I remembered how terrified Zera was four weeks ago when I told her about the fate of the lunar eclipse. I needed Ron calm for Zera's sake, so he could mark the way he should. Doing it right was important.

There were many risks attached to being marked wrongly, some included bleeding, falling graciously ill or, worse, death. I hid none of the risks when I told Zera the truth and it terrified her, as it should. I was also terrified. I didn't want to lose Zera, but this was what we had to do.

She was to trust Ron, whom I didn't trust tonight and though she told me she had come to an acceptance of the fact, I could see how terrified she was. She wanted to do this for me and it was taking almost everything from her to do it. Ron had to create a bond with her so he wouldn't become aggressive towards her at the lunar eclipse. I had to have faith that he would not hurt Zera in the process of marking her.

Zera hasn't spoken about it since I told her many weeks ago and I knew she had thought about it over and over as well.

"It's time," Zera said from the window where she stood staring at the night cloud.

I had to trust Ron would take care of Zera like I would, and the last thing I wanted to do was trust Ron.

"Let me out already!" he growled at me and I released Zera's hand and mumbled an 'I love you' before losing control and being shoved to the back seat. Zera stood still, watching as Ron emerged and landed on his paws, tall and arrogant as always. A low growl left his mouth, and he took a step forward.

Her hands shot forward in defence and stepped back even as she tried to maintain a steady balance on the ground.

"Calm down, Ron. I'm not here to cause any harm. If you and Aaron are truly one, then you'd know by now I want nothing but the best for the both of you, and that's why we are here."

Her words weren't getting to Ron because he growl and surge forward and she took to her heels, running as fast as her legs could take her while Ron chased after her.