” I know , it’s insane . ” Breyona’s laugh was breathless and just a bit choked up as she wiped the tears from her eyes . Staring off into the forest , her voice unnaturally soft she said , ” I never thought I’d be able t o feel that kind of freedom again …. it’s like -it’s like I can breathe again . ” >>
” Breyona , I don’t know why they did that … but there’s no way they won’t want something in return . ” I wasn’t sure what made my chest ache more , warning my best – friend her dream come true might actually be a nightmare , or seeing the denial bleed across her face when I continued carefully , ” I’m just worried they’ll take back what they gave you in the first place …
” I didn’t want to say it , but she wasn’t giving me a choice . There was stubborn refusal in her warm hazelnut eyes , but I knew no matter how miserable she was without her wolf , she’d be worse off without Giovanni . ” … Giovanni’s life . ” I murmured and watched as the iron bars of resolution slammed down over her eyes .
” No , that’s not it . ” Breyona stood from the patio chair but made no move to head inside . Frustration was written across every corner of her face and was obvious in the semi – aggressive way she pulled her hair back . ” So I’m not a witch , but that doesn’t mean my gut feelings can’t be right too .
Well , right now mine is telling me they wouldn’t take my wolf and save Gio’s life , only to return her and finish the job . ” I wanted to reassure her , but the only thing I felt was worried , both for her and Giovanni . ” Why can’t I just have both ? ” Her voice cracked , and she clenched her hands into fists while letting out a shaky breath . Devastation still shimmered in her eyes , but she held it down so well . ” Let’s – let’s just drop it for tonight , okay ? I know we can’t ignore it forever …
but if I could just have these few days with Gio . We can figure out what to do when I come back . ” Just from watching her pull the splintered shards of emotion from her skin and patch herself together , I realized I might’ve not given my best – friend enough credit . Not once had she faltered a t my side , even though she was going through so much herself . Instead she kept her problems to herself , even though a subtle feeling told me she’d been drowning in them .
Feeling like a monumentally crappy friend I stood and wrapped my arms around her waist , which I was sure looked comical since I was nearly a foot shorter than her . Sure enough , she began to chuckle , but I could hear the sniffling it covered . Watching the happiness that had just been rekindled fade in her eyes had a sobering affect .
” We’re going to make sure you can have both , Breyona . I’ll use every bit of magic I have to make sure of it . ” I promised , cracking a grin at her brave nod and the way she hastily wiped at her eyes . Minutes later , Cassidy eagerly interrupted with news about her lacrosse player ex boyfriend , Kendrick . With gossip and a rapidly cooling pizza waiting , Breyona and I raced back inside .
While we stuffed our faces with pizza from the small parlor down the street , Cassidy told us all about her whirlwind romance with Kendrick – which seemed more fueled by lust than anything else . Breyona wrinkled her nose at my slice of Hawaiian every other minute , but otherwise was absorbed in every seedy detail of Cassidy’s story .
” My mom was absolutely against Kendrick from the start , despite what she says . It took her almost a year just to get over the fact that I wasn’t Asher or Brandon’s mate . ” Cassidy rolled her eyes and let out a small huff as she tore the crust off her slice of pizza . From what I could tell of her expression , she looked more exasperated than jealous or longing .
I didn’t have nearly enough to drink to feel comfortable asking my questions outright , but I apparently Breyona had . ” Did you want to be one of their mates ? ” Her voice grew quieter even though there was no one in the house to hear us . Any wolves patrolling the grounds would be well out of range , but that didn’t stop her
from asking it as though it were a secret . She hiccupped once and added , ” … don’t worry , Lola is freakishly good at not getting jealous . She won’t go all tri – brid o n you for talking about her mate .
” When I snorted in her direction her smile widened . Maya’s tail swished in my head , letting me know how wrong our endearing friend was about us not getting jealous . ” I’ve definitely thought about how incredible it would be to be Luna , but at this point being mated to one of them would feel like being mated to a brother .
” Cassidy wrinkled her nose , creasing some of the freckles splattered along its slim surface . ” I think our parents expected it because of how persistent I was back then . The minute I saw Brandon and Asher wrestling in the dirt , rougher than all the other kids , I knew I wanted to be best friends . ” The ease at which she spoke dissolved the tension in the room .
If there was any hesitance on her end , I couldn’t sense it . M y relationship with Asher and the titles I’d been given didn’t affect the things she said , or the way she treated me . It was refreshing and eased the rest of the trepidation I had towards Cassidy . ‘ Asher said himself , he’s never even kissed her . Which means there’s no reason to be jealous .
‘ I reminded my wolf , who at times could be much more hot headed and stubborn than myself . A contemplative look forced her lower lip out in a pout , which lasted but a few seconds . ” I’m sure my mom won’t hate Kendrick this time around . Hm , I might just cancel my date with Lars . Kendrick has a game out of town that day anyway , and I’m nothing if not persistent – which means I have to go too , especially if there’s a good afterparty .
” We’re just teasing … ” Cassidy giggled and tossed back the strong – scented liquor . Her perfect pout remained in place even though I knew her throat must be burning . ” … I think every she – wolf dreams of meeting her mate that way . It’s just so strange seeing Asher wrapped around someone’s finger with how untouchable he can be .
” ” Those are the best ones though . ” Breyona sighed , plopping down with a pint of mint chocolate chip – the worst ice cream flavor to grace this planet . ” The men that act all tough and brooding , but secretly they want you more than you could ever imagine . Mason’s getting the brooding part down , especially since meeting Clara . I think things between them would be … explosive . He just has to stop being so stubborn . “
She giggled at her choice of words , undoubtedly comparing it to Clara’s magical abilities . That night , after finishing two containers of ice cream and suffering through a long winded romantic comedy we ended up hating halfway through , I stared at the ceiling in my bedroom and thought of Mason . It didn’t matter how much time had passed , only that I was responsible for the death of his mate .
There was no telling what could have changed with time – if she would’ve left her Vampire spouse to follow the bond that tugged at her soul . I’d taken that choice from her , and that future from Mason . The gentle and repetitive sound of Breyona’s snoring had yet to lull me to sleep , so I wasted the time conjuring ways to get Mason and Clara alone together .
Most of them were juvenile , like having Asher assign Mason as her personal trainer . It wasn’t too far – fetched since Clara knew absolutely nothing about defending herself without magic , but he’d see through me in a second if I were the one to give the order .
Someway somehow , they would find themselves alone together , I was sure of i t . Even more so , If Breyona were right and the spark between them mirrored Asher and I’s , it would only be a matter of time before they both caught flame .
I wanted this desperately for Mason , for him to have some fraction of his happiness restored – some shred of peace reclaimed since his reason for existing had been so cruelly ripped away . Exhaustion was weighing down my eyes and pulling me into its deep abyss when m y heart skipped a beat and a jolt spread throughout my chest .
Though the feeling was abrupt , there was no stopping myself from tumbling over the edge . Right before plummeting , I wondered if it were my thoughts about Mason or something else entirely that caused my elusive magic to crackle down my nerve endings , and even more so I wondered what it meant .
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