Alpha Asher By Jane Doe novel Chapter 55

Read Alpha Asher [by Jane Doe] Chapter 55 – I had finally given in the night Lola moved into the packhouse. I had taken Mason home and went home myself. Tonight, was another night I was still in my bed. Sleep refused to claim me, instead placing images of Giovanni in my mind.

My soul had found its other half and being away from him was nearing painful.

I sped down the road, disregarding the speed limit signs. My soul and wolf knew where I was headed, the two of them wanted to get there quickly.

Unknowingly, I reached out with my heart. I was searching for Giovanni, silently pleading as I hoped he would come to the house.

The windows were dark as I pulled into the driveway for the second time. I found myself sitting in my Aunt’s armchair, sleep refusing to claim me. I felt wired and awake, sleep the farthest thought from my mind.

When Giovanni silently stepped through the door an hour later, I launched myself at him.

His body stiffened as I slammed into his chest, but the anticipation had been building for too long. I knew this was wrong, deep down I knew it. My mind and body were at war with each other, claiming they both knew what was best.

I would never betray Lola or my pack, but surely, I deserved these few moments of peace. These were all I had until the inevitable happened. Either Giovanni chose me, or he chose his kind.

“Little she-wolf.” Giovanni cleared his throat, taking a step back from me. “I felt you reaching out to me.”

“I didn’t know what I was doing.” I frowned, “I just—I had to come here.”

I was at a loss for words, but it seemed Giovanni was in the same situation.

“I have been feeling things—for you.” Giovanni cleared his throat again, his eyes flashing with reluctance. “It has been difficult staying away from this house.”

“I know.” I breathed, my eyes roaming every inch of him. “It’s been hard for me too. I couldn’t stay away any longer.”

Giovanni’s lips parted to say something but closed shortly after. I took his hesitation and tossed it to the side. I knew what I wanted, and right now I wanted to pretend.

I wanted to pretend he wasn’t a vampire, and I wasn’t a werewolf. We were just two normal people who happened to share a connection. I wanted just a moment of this before reality crashed down, guilt following.

I threw my arms over his shoulders and pressed myself against him. He was too tall for me to reach his lips, so I freckled light kisses across his jaw. His body tensed under my touch, but he made no move to distance himself.

I knew I had won when his arms snak*d around my waist, pulling myself tighter against him. His head bent down, his lips meeting my own. I could feel the emotion he held back, the hunger that hid behind his eyes.

Somewhere in the back of my mind, my logical side was screaming. I was kissing a Vampire in the middle of nowhere. He could m****r me and leave my body to rot. It could be quite some time until my Mom thought to look here.

Much too soon, Giovanni pulled himself from me. He looked as though he wanted to say something, something important.

“Little she-wolf.” Giovanni’s lips were parted, practically begging for another taste. “This cannot continue—things have been set into motion. You will not be able to tolerate my involvement.”

My stomach sank at his words, and fear coursed through my veins. The way he was speaking made it sound as though the Vampires had plans, plans they were involving Giovanni in.

“What’s happening, Giovanni?” I frowned; his name tasted sweet on my lips. Something in his eyes flashed as I said his name, the bond between us growing stronger.

“I will not betray my people.” Giovanni’s eyes hardened painfully, “I just wished to inform you.”

“You can see what they’re doing is wrong, right? “I frowned, my eyes wide and pleading. “The Vampire’s want to end all werewolf life. Werewolves don’t want all Vampire’s d**d. We were happy living in peace.”

“You say that as though I am not one of them.” Giovanni’s voice was cold, detached. “I cannot change what I am, nor can you.”

The backs of my eyes burned, desperately wanting to let the tears run free. I refused to give into the agony, determined to keep myself together in front of this man. If he could throw a mask on his face and ignore his emotions, so could I.

Giovanni turned towards the front door, stepping out onto the porch. His eyes were dark as he turned and looked at me.

“I follow orders, just as you do.” Giovanni’s eyes concealed just a flicker of pain before he sped off into the night.

• * * * *

I had refused to go back to my Aunt’s house. My heart stung with pain every time Giovanni crossed my mind.

I hated myself for my weakness, and I hated myself for thinking there could be a happy ending. The moment I stepped into my car; the tears fell freely from my face. I had cried the entire drive home, silently demanding answers from the Moon Goddess. The tears returned with a vengeance when my pleas went unanswered.

I would spend my nights alone, drowning in my own emotions as I tried to resist my forbidden mate. During the day I would throw a mask on for the world, one that was being kept together by tape and glue. I summoned what strength I could, hiding my pain from everyone.

What hurt me the most was keeping it from Lola. Lola of all people would understand. She wouldn’t hate me for what I had done, nor would she expect me to reject Giovanni. She was the one person I could go to, and yet I couldn’t force myself to tell her the truth.

I hadn’t seen Giovanni in days, yet it felt much longer than that.

Mason and I had gone through with Lola’s plan, sneaking from our houses in the middle of the night. My heart hammered nervously as Mason and I waited alongside the training building. Mason was picking at his fingers, the two of us listening in on Lola through the mind-link.