Alpha's New Girl novel Chapter 23

My dream was disturbing. But falling in love scared me so bad that I wanted to scream. It's not possible to love someone this way so fast. It can't be real. This only happens in the movies.

But maybe I should take the fall and trust him to be there to caught me. I've never loved someone this way. I'm scared to have my heart broken. I'm scared I'll let him down. Even thought we're mates I'm scared he'll leave me.

Werewolves have mates, but sometimes a mate will cheat. It doesn't happen as much as it used to, but it kills the mates soul and heart when they find out. When werewolves lose a mate they can go on. It hurts like hell but they're wolf knows their mate is dead. When a wolf can't be with their mate because of complex situations the wolf gets weak and sometimes dies. The worst thing ever is when they cheat on them. They go crazy or commit suicide.

The thing is our human side acts differently. If the human side loved them as well its ten times worse. If they didn't the pain is dulled down.

I had to take the risk. Because with out love who am I really? My whole life was about love. I need to take the jump and hope I don't fall.

Villain

Very soon Ash and Fay will mate. I'll make sure of it. I looked into the mirror. My face tired of fighting. I was tired of fighting my insanity. I didn't want help. I needed to fight it alone. My black hair was clean and reached my shoulders. The alpha blood starting to take over.

Since Carson died I was the alpha. The voice the power. It was all mine. I didn't want it though.

My eyes glanced at the picture of him. My mate. He looked so young and so happy. My angry flared and I hit the picture sending it flying through the air hitting the door. The crash sound met it broke into many pieces of glass.

I turned to look. They glistened even in the darkness of the room. I felt tears run down my face. The salt tasted bitter sweet. Just like my life.

Its time to let go. I said to myself. I felt my sanity leave me. Maybe for ever or maybe this was just temperately a set back in my life.

My sanity left and all that was left was a shell of who I used to be. A mere memory of myself that faded away.

He didn't hang with the player guys anymore. All the sluts left him alone and I came to realize that I really do care for him. This is crazy.

I have a mate. And I never wanted one. Seeing him makes my heart melt. I wanted to kiss him when I saw him. I've only known him for like two weeks. This is not normal.

My dream came back to me. I don't know what it met, but my family seems to get these premonitions. Its one reason why they're so successful.

I'm scared. I know I die and its in a fire. I don't think Asher was there with me. So I'll die in the arms of someone else. Does that mean he dies before me. Why did this happen? Why is there a fire? All I know is that I don't want to die. In the dream I did. So it won't happen for sometime.

When I got out of the bathroom Asher was still asleep. That lazy butthead. Where are those alpha instincts? I felt so sexually frustrated watching him. Must be because of my mate instincts.

I started to rub his friend. I mean I think I'm just desperate now. He started moaning in his sleep. It was a turn on and the way he was moaning was hilarious.