Alpha's Second Chance novel Chapter 179

OLIVIA

It has been two days, and I am lying in my bed, only in my underwear, sweating like crazy because I feel like my body is burning. The heat is what makes me feel this way. Typically, for a she-wolf, the burning goes away when she is with her mate sensually. But because of everything that is happening, I am trying to avoid doing this so that I won’t get pregnant. I need to be able to help protect our family and pack, all the packs, and Logan understands that.

“Sweetie, are you awake?” I hear Kate's voice ask, she has been here and helped me these last two days.

“It is burning. It feels like I am on fire inside.” I whisper weakly.

“I know, Sweetie. I brought some ice cream to maybe help you, just a little.” She tells me softly.

I sit up slowly and she hands me the ice, that I slowly eat, and it feels so good, to get something cold into my system. But the relief is short-lived because it doesn’t take long before the burning starts again, and it feels worse than before.

“I can not do this. It is too much. I can not handle it.” I cry out, this is unbearable.

It’s getting too much. I do not know how to handle another five days like this; I just can’t. But I know the consequences if I can’t get through this. I know what will happen, but I am still about to give up.

‘Liv, baby, you can do this, we can do this.’ I hear and feel Logan in our matebond.

‘I can’t.’ I whisper back trying to hide the pain, but I know he has already felt it. And he is quiet for a bit.

‘Baby say the word and I will be there.’ He says and I feel his voice shake.

‘But the risks.’ I start.

‘I know, baby. But we will figure it out. We always do. I hate that you are in so much pain.’ He says.

‘I can do this. I need to do this. I’m sorry.’ I whisper through the matebond.

‘it is okay, baby. It is okay.’ He assures me.

‘I love you, Logan.’ I tell him.

‘And I love you.’ He says, and we slowly close the link.

After he is gone from the mind link I roll into a small ball in the bed, and cry, not just because of the pain, but because I miss him. But also because it is not because I don’t want another pup, because I do. I love our family, and just like Logan, I want a big family. Fucking vampires, stupid jealous goddess. I know cursing a goddess is not good, but I’m so angry right now. And I wish there was something I could do, something that could stop this useless war.

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LOGAN

Fuck I hate this. I can feel she is in pain, and knowing I would be able to stop it only makes it worse. But I also know that she is right. Risking that she could get pregnant is not a good idea right now.

I’ve been at the castle with Rose and Noah the last two days, and it helps that they can distract me a little. At this moment we are all in our room, Rose playing with a new doll and Noah with his new cars when a mindlink comes in.