An Italian's Virgin Escort Series novel Chapter 49

Sienna Point of View

'There is always a purpose hidden behind the pain given by the God.'

It was said to me by the church father who took me in two years ago. At that time I only scoffed at the preaching he was doing. I thought what purpose it could be that I had to go through so much pain for so long not just from one door but from many doors.

A Purpose?

Should we have to go through a lot just so you know a purpose of your life?

Is it worth it?

My answer is, yes.

I didn't understand what kind of purpose that God and angels has for me to put me through long years of unbearable agony even losing the only family I had.

But I now knew what it was. It was for the women like me and Phoebe. I understood now that if not for the first hand experience I had leading a life of worthless woman, I wouldn't know how many innocent girls were forced to the hell.

I understood that I had to go through everything because only experience teaches the life what it is capable of. Experience is the master as well a student of a life. Though I lost so much in my life, I started appreciating what I gained too.

Though I lost my parents at a young age, I still found an elder like grandma. Though I lost Noah, I still found Niccolo. Even though he cannot replace Noah, he still was the best. And most of all, though I lost the comfortable dignified life, I still gained a life time lesson through it. I had a strong empathy towards prostitutes and want to get them a life outside the hell was because I understood that was the purpose behind the pain I went through.

But, But... what is the purpose behind the pain Phoebe and Niccolo are going through? What can be the purpose of losing an innocent infant?

It's been three weeks Phoebe and Niccolo lost their daughter and Phoebe is still stuck over the grief of losing her. We were trying hard to get her out of her mourning and even the little Leonardo and Mario got very protective over their mother these three weeks. Yes, Phoebe is feeling better all because of new babies. She rather started taking extra care of her new babies' but we can still see the sadness lingering around her.

Niccolo is quiet the other story. He was gulping down the sorrow all by himself to stand strong beside Phoebe. I felt so miserable when he was actually feeling a lot of pain too but still had to gulp it down. It was the most miserable thing to get hurt still cannot react to it.

"I heard you forgave him?" Grandma probed quietly, looking at me with narrowed eyes to which I nodded. She looked at me further explanation but I looked away not giving in for her Sherlock Holmes mode.

"Well?" She probed again mentally poking me for details.

Seriously, sometimes she behaves like a same age horny best friend who's hungry for dirty details.

"I just thought I shouldn't regret not forgiving him and get tied down to the past when I need to move on for better future." I explained simply not wanting to give a detailed explanation. She knows me too well to get the full picture from a simple sentence.

"You did well" Grandma said with a small smile.

"Hmm"

"How do you feel now?" She asked looking at me interested with the present conversation.

"About what?" I asked confused.

"How do you feel after forgiving him?"