Be Your Lover Forever (Alicia) novel Chapter 564

"So, the reason why you hate me, do not want to recognize me, and refused to come back even when you were alive, denying my presence in person, was because you think that I do not love you or I do not love you enough? I am undeserving of your return, right?"

His grip on her increased unconsciously. Frederick closed his eyes in regret. If he had known that she was still alive, he would not have been so desperate as to give up on himself this way.

She avoided his passionate gaze and pursed her lips. Was she not right? She did not want to be tied down to this kind of love and marriage that was one-sided!

When he opened his eyes again, his eyes appeared misty.

"If it was not because I loved you so much, if it was not because I could not bear to lose you, why would I keep looking for your shadow in other women? And why would I hold a ghost wedding for you?"

Ghost wedding?

The two words struck her like lightning, and she slowly lifted her head as her eyes widened. He was saying that the wedding on October 10th was...

"Since I was young, I dreamed of warmth. I also wanted a father, a mother, and a happy family, but none of this was in my memory. All I had was envy towards others' warmth and happiness! When I met Danica, I thought that the warmth that she gave me was happiness, and she was what I wanted most in my life. Until I met you and lost you, I realized that love could be so eternal and unforgettable that you could follow me between life and death! Ally, I thought you were dead. I thought you were gone. I've looked at your photos and listened to the last voice message you sent to me countless times. I really wanted to accompany you. If my grandmother wasn't around, I really wanted to be with you! I kept washing the same dishes and living in the same house we lived in everyday. It was so painful, but I just did not want to leave... No matter what, as long as I could have you back, I was willing to do anything! If I did not find other women who were similar to you, I was afraid that I could not hold on and I would want to go and find you. Do you understand? I did not betray you. After you, I haven't touched any women other than you. I would not..."

Frederick held her tightly in his arms, feeling even more remorseful and choking with sobs.

"You were the only one I ever wanted! You were the only one! Why didn't you come to me? Why didn't I think about the possibility that the person in the fire could be someone related to you by blood? How could I confirm that it was you just because the DNA was almost identical to yours? No wonder you ran in even when it was on fire."

The crux of the problem seemed to have been found. He could not even control his emotions, and Alicia was even more shocked, with tears falling down her face.

"I went to find you..."

"What?" How did he not know?

She looked at him and said, "I saw you travel far to buy roses, go to eat with a woman, and go to a hotel. I then..."

As soon as she was sad and angry, she gave up. On second thought, she felt that it was wrong again. If he really did not love her, why did he bother to send her flowers?