[BL] Accidentally Becoming the Healer of the Deranged Archduke novel Chapter 197

Chapter 197: Holy shit. I’m gay!!!

Xion never thought there would be a day like this.

Forget him, even Allen, who was always stone-faced, had a peculiar expression.

His facial muscles barely moved, but the wide honey-brown eyes and slightly agape mouth were enough to force yet another layer of blush to bloom on Xion’s cheeks.

Because across from him, Darius— yes, the great Archduke was holding a bowl and stirring it gently with a silver spoon and was getting ready to spoon-feed him.

It was porridge. Made exactly the way Xion liked it.

He’d woken up in the empty tent after almost two hours of another nap, and his stomach had started screaming for food. Not that he could blame it.

So, naturally, he pushed himself off the bed... only to nearly kiss the ground.

If it hadn’t been for someone catching him, Xion would’ve faceplanted like a tragic little worm.

"Your Grace?" he blurted out, startled by the sudden presence behind him.

"I leave you for a few minutes, and you’re already trying to run around?"

Darius’ voice was flat, almost chiding, as he scooped Xion into his arms like a sack of misbehaving flour and placed him back onto the bed.

"Your body is weak. Most likely barely holding on."

Xion knew it. Of course, he did.

But what was he supposed to do when he was starving? He didn’t even need to explain. The loud growl of his stomach spoke louder than any excuse.

And that was how he found himself here, sitting like a frail prince on a mountain of blankets, while the most dangerous man in the empire sat across from him, gently blowing on a spoonful of hot porridge.

Allen had personally made it. But after his little gaffe, the alchemist had silently retreated from the tent with the kind of speed Xion had never seen him move with.

Xion had wanted to scream after him. Brother don’t leave me alone!

But before him, Darius spoke.

"You asked me that question..." he began while still stirring the porridge, "Was it because of Allen?"

"Ah?" Xion let out an extremely unintelligent sound.

"You were talking about liking someone, Xion." Darius didn’t look up. His hand moved steadily as he stirred the thick creamy liquid.

That was when something exploded in Xion’s brain.

Like... liking... me liking Darius...

Suddenly, it hit him all at once, like a cruel epiphany delivered by the gods.

Holy shit. I’m gay!!!

Not only that, but he was also apparently gay for someone who was at least a decade older than him, who could kill with a flick of his wrist, and who had likely already killed more people than Xion had saved.

He wasn’t just gay. He was doomed.

The heat rose violently from his chest to his ears. It wrapped around his body and made him stiffen like a statue. Even without looking up, he knew that pink had started to dot on his cheeks.

And to make matters worse, the said decade-older death god had just reached over and rubbed his head. So gently at that...

"What is it?" Darius asked in a deceptively soft voice. "Why are you tensing all of a sudden?"

The Archduke paused before his lips curled up. "Could it be..."

Xion glanced up and immediately regretted it. Because Darius wasn’t smiling.

He was smirking.

And nothing good ever followed that look.

But... But! Why does he look so good even when he is so scary?

Xion’s brain was breaking. Am I really one of those idiots?

He had always despised those people who lose all sense the second their crush breathes in their direction. I used to hate them.

Indeed, he did, especially when this kind of sappy romance turned a perfectly good show into utter bullshit. And now I’ve become one?

And then, without thinking, he slapped both of his cheeks with a sharp smack.

He looked dangerous.