Chasing His Betrayed Luna novel Chapter 39

ALPHA RAIDEN

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Larisa didn’t return to my mansion that day and while a part of me felt relieved that she had gone back to her dad’s home, a bigger part of me felt like I was the asshole Aurelia and Lex had been calling me.

I shouldn’t have treated Larisa like that and while it was a good choice to reject her body because I didn’t want her, perhaps I could have found a better and less insulting way to do it.

And Aurelia?

Nothing could ever make up for the way I treated her in the past. She made me realize I wasn’t as perfect as I thought I was. I said I hated bullies but I bullied Aurelia emotionally for the three years she stayed married to me…. Until I literally slapped her with divorce papers, running into the arms of Larisa… who I had been treating poorly as well.

Maybe I was under a curse– To never love any woman like they deserved to be loved.

“Curse? Hell no! You’re just plain stupid.” Lex countered my thought even though I was already feeling like shit.

He added, “You shouldn’t feel like shit.” He emphasized the word feel and continued, ”You’re shit. Own it, asshole.”

“You look like shit, Alpha. Is everything alright?” Andrew asked, emphasizing Lex’s words even though he couldn’t have heard my wolf.

We were both sitting in the pack’s general office after dismissing a meeting with the council of Elders and of course, Nolan was there, shooting daggers at me all through the meeting. I assumed his daughter already told him about what happened between us last night and he most likely despised me even more than he did after the dinner we had.

“Everything sucks and you know it,” I confessed to Andrew, closing my eyes in hopes that I’d feel a sense of peace even if it was for a mere second but Aurelia’s face popped into my head, stealing my peace.

Andrew asked with interest, “Is this about Aurelia or Larisa?”

“Actually, it’s both, Drew,” I revealed.

If I was going to be a better man and Alpha, I might as well start owning up to my mistakes and feelings. I was in love with Aurelia but I didn’t deserve her and Larisa was still in love with me as seen yesterday before she stormed out of my home but I also didn’t deserve Larisa’s love… not anyone.

“You are still confused about how you feel about both women?” Andrew asked me, his beta senses kicking in.

I looked around my office, taking a minute to think before voicing my response with conviction, “I’m not confused, Drew. I know I love Aurelia. I’ve been in love with her even before she escaped and rejected me but–”

“You were too blinded by your childhood love to realize that.” He completed for me. “Or you were probably just longing for what you were used to because you were terrified of your new feelings.”

It made so much sense when Andrew described it like that but it also made me look like the victim which I wasn’t. In this story, I’m the villain.