Crises in Love (Zora and Jaylan) novel Chapter 178

As Ronan was driving, he gave me a puzzling look, making me uneasy. "Do you think I'm a vicious woman?"

"No way!" He shook his head immediately, explaining, "It's just that I feel you've changed, too. You've become, um, more mature. You're calm and composed. Good for you!"

"Well, I have to grow up. I'm a mother of three. But I've done lousy job. I’ve let them get me into such a mess and almost got killed, but I was completely oblivious. What else could possibly make me lose my cool?" I said lightly, but a torrent of emotions was churning inside me.

"Right! There's nothing wrong with being a bit selfish in certain situations. You need to protect yourself in order to protect your family! You're doing great. You're a strong mother!"

"But it's hard on the kid!" I murmured, "I hope they'll treat him well!"

"Yeah! It's not the kid's fault, and why should he bear such a punishment?" Ronan agreed, adding, "That's why it's important to do what is right!"

I didn't expect him to say such a clichéd phrase, and I couldn't help but laugh.

He quickly turned to me. "Why are you laughing? Was I wrong?"

"No, you're right! But there's another saying you should know, 'The road to righteousness is full of hardships.'" I teased, laughing genuinely.

He stared at me for a long time, making me feel awkward. Instinctively I reached out and adjusted his face. "Focus! You're driving. You need to ensure my safety!"

Hearing this, he chuckled contentedly. "Okay, I will!"

"What do you mean 'you will'?" I repeated awkwardly, "Just focus on your driving. You can't be distracted!"

"I've always been focused. I will ensure your safety. I couldn't protect you in the past, but I won't let that happen again. I'll make sure that you're safe!" He elaborated, adding solemnly, "Trust me. I can definitely do it this time! I've spent twelve years honing my skills, but I’ve missed out on so much!"

"So..." He looked at me. "I will bear the future with you at any cost!"

Hearing his words, I felt a lump in my throat. I didn't dare to look at him, thinking I didn’t deserve him.

But I didn't voice my thoughts. At that moment, I was incredibly selfish!

The silence in the car was suffocating. He didn't say anything more. Sometimes, we just needed one word, and one more word would be superfluous.

Just like now, we both understood each other's thoughts. Ronan’s thoughts were clear to me, and he surely understood mine. But miracles require not only thoughts and expressions but also courage.

We both had courage. But at present, my mind was not here but to end my mistake with Jaylan properly.