Don't get close to me (Linda and Beast) novel Chapter 65

I told Blade about Shawn and she has missed her appointment. I have had enough. I stormed out the back door to the cabin. I opened the door and walked in. I saw furniture moved into the hallway and I slid it against the wall.

I walked to the room that used to be our bedroom. I leaned against the wall watching her. What the hell is she doing? She watching the walls and she got to the wall I was leaning against.

I was shocked. She kept washing the wall and saying you not real, your not real and she started to rub the rag on my shit and pants.

"What the hell are you doing Shawn." I asked.

All she kept saying was your not real. What the hell is wrong with her. I watched as she put the rag in the bucket and then she started painting the wall across from me a dark red. When she finished all the walls she turned fans on to help the paint try.

I watched as she walked out and poured a cup of coffee sat down at the table and looked out the window. It was about one hour later she walked back to the bedroom.

I stood watching as she put the bedframe up under the window. Then she pulled and pushed the box spring in and put it on the bed along with the mattress.

Next came the end tables, dressers, and pictures. She finally made the bed and looked around the room smiling. I miss that smile.

But what I did not like was her bones showing threw. She was not healthy. After the bedroom was finished She walked out the back door and put the lid on the paint and clean the brushes.

I stood back as she walked back in. What the hell is she doing? It is as if I am not real to her. What the hell have I done to her? I looked over to see her walk to the desk and pick up a box with a lid on it.

She sat down at the table again. I saw letters she wrote being put in envelops with Star's name on them. Then she wrote to be opened on the day she gets her first boyfriend, day she graduates from high school, day she is claimed, the day she is told the truth, day she has her first child.

Then she placed them in the box before picking up an envelope If the baby is a girl I named you, Raven. and did the same thing. She put a ribbon around this bundle, Then envelopes that say, If you are a boy. Your name will be Renegade. She wrapped all those letters in a ribbon and then placed them in the box.

I felt tears fall down my face as I watched her put in two more envelops. One said for Blade, and the other said, "My last will and testament.

I saw what she wrote on top of the box. She wrote: To be opened the day I die. Am I going to lose her for good, are the children?

I watched as she walked back over to the desk and sit the box on the top of the desk. I watched as she walked down the hall and up the stairs.

I followed her down the hall to her bedroom. I watched as walked over and sat down in the Rocking chair and stared over at the club house.

I walked over and sat in the other rocking chair. "Shawn. Shawn." I said louder.

I watched as she put her hands to her head. She started that shit again. saying. "Your not here, you're not real. Go away Blade."

What the fuck is going on with her. I took my phone out and recorder her. I then sent it to my mother. I stood up and walked out into the hall.

I called my mom.

"Mom, what is wrong with Shawn?"

"I would say she has disassociation. A mental health breakdown. It is her way of coping."

"Right now she believes that you are not there." After everything that has happened to her this is her survivor skill."

"Take her to see her doctor."

"Thanks mom."