Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M novel Chapter 436

I was a nervous wreck. Everything inside me screamed, and I didn’t know how to calm myself down.

“How do I look?” I ask the three women who were on video chat with me.

It’s funny how I just clicked with them. I had never had girlfriends before, but Ava, Letty and Connie were quickly becoming my girls. I was surprised at how everything flowed with them and how easy it was for me to open up to them.

When I’d told them that I was going on a date with Gabriel, they’d been excited for me and even helped me brainstorm the kind of makeup I should go with and how to do my hair.

“Hot,” Ava replies with a smile that lights up her face.

Letty jumps in after “Sexy,”

“I’d do you if I were into women,” Connie says seriously, making me laugh.

My new friends helped me shop for my dress. The moment they found out about the date and that I had yet to find a dress, they volunteered to help me scout shops in order to get the perfect dress.

I look at myself in the mirror, appreciating how I looked. I wasn’t vain, but I looked pretty damn delectable.

We’d settled on a red bodycon, midi dress with a round neckline, long sleeves and an open back. I wanted something that was sexy, but classy at the same time. Ava had agreed that showing just enough to tease was going to drive Gabriel.

My intention wasn’t to be seductive or drive him crazy, but I wouldn’t mind if it happened either.

My long hair was in a low textured bun with loose tendrils framing my face. For my makeup, I went with golden brown eyeshadow, black eyeliner and red matte lips. I paired everything up with a pair of golden heels and a black leather clutch.

“Seriously, Gabriel won’t be able to take his eyes off you,” Ava says, with an appreciative glance at my outfit.

“Thank you, guys, for helping me pick this dress up,” I tell them.

Like I said, our life was built on friendship and companionship. It was comfortable and that was okay with both of us. I didn’t mind it, but looking back right now, I see our life together for what it was. We both didn’t want to put any effort into it because we had both loved and lost. Our losses were different, but it still hurt all the same.

Maybe if the girl he had loved. The one who took his heart with him had been alive, they would have had a different life. There would be date nights where they enjoyed each other’s company. Maybe their life would have been full of passion and fire instead of comfort.

Lilly’s claps bring me back to the present. “You look like those models I see on TV.”

Bending forward, I kiss her cheek. “Thank you darling. I’m so glad you approve.”

Lilly has never seen me dress up like this. Seeing her so happy and excited about seeing me dressed up, brings a pang to my heart. I’ll always be grateful to Liam for accepting us, but what kind of life was I showing my daughter?

That it was okay to just be comfortable in marriage? That it was okay for a relationship to lack passion? That it was okay to marry someone you aren’t in love with?

She would have started seeing our relationship for what it was. As she got older, she would start to understand and she would think it was okay to settle. I was hurt before but it doesn’t mean that I no longer believed in love.