Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M novel Chapter 438

“Then what do you want? Because you are honestly confusing me here,” I tell him honestly.

“You. I want you, Harper.”

I pull my hand from his and straighten in my chair, while looking at him suspiciously.

“You have to realize just how unbelievable you sound right now. You didn’t want me back then. You never wanted me and even went to great heights to drive in the point. How the hell do you expect me to believe that all of a sudden you now want me?”

Is it wrong that I’m suspicious of him? That I’m suspicious of his end game. That I am afraid he could just be charming me just to get into my pants. That he was playing a game with me. I don’t think I could handle it if that turns out to be case. It would shatter me.

He stares at me in an intense way. His eyes stay on me for a couple of minutes as if he’s trying to find the right words.

“I don’t know what to say, Harper. I don’t even think I can explain it to you given that I barely understand it myself,” he explains in a soft voice. “All I know is that I want you, and not just your body,”

Given our marriage before, I was skeptical. I found it hard to believe his words. To believe that he wants me when he used to drill into me that he never would.

“I don’t know what I am supposed to do with that, Gabriel. I don’t know what you want from me.”

“Just give me a chance. That’s all I ask,” he says, taking my hand again.

I am so fucking confused, so instead of saying anything, I keep quiet. I am not really sure I’m ready to give him a chance. Hell, I am not even sure I should give him a chance.

I can’t and won’t even try to deny the attraction I felt towards him. It’s there, like a blazing inferno that was ready to consume me, but was that enough? Should that passion be reason enough to give him a chance?

I’m saved from the awkwardness of not answering when the waiter serves our food.

We eat and make small talk, and I slowly start to relax and let go of the tension that had eased itself in my bones.

“So, what’s your favorite thing to do when you have free time?” Gabriel asks when we are done with dinner.

He helps me inside the car, but doesn’t start the car immediately after he gets in.

He turns to me with a serious expression. “I’m dying to kiss you. Can I kiss you Harper?”

I think about it. As much as I wanted so much to kiss him. As much as my body begged me to seal our lips, I couldn’t do that. Not when I was still unsure and confused about where I stood in his life.

“I’m sorry, but, no” I tell him in a confident voice.

Even though I rejected him partly because of my confusion, the other part was because I wanted to test him. Would he insist? Would he get mad? Deep down I know he isn’t that kind of man, but I couldn’t help myself.

He smiles at me, proving me right about the kind of man he was. “I will have your kisses soon enough, when I win you over.”

I don’t say a word, and he starts the car seconds later. As we make the drive back home, I couldn’t help but wonder if all this was just a phase for him or was he really serious.