Guide Me If You Dare novel Chapter 108

Chapter 108: ANOTHER CLICHÉ

DAMMIT.

Yuno flinched when Ki Gayoon placed a cold compress on his forehead.

Yep, he was now running a high fever.

Hence, he ended up lying on the bed after dinner.

"Hyung, I think I’m going to die," Yuno said in a hoarse voice, his eyes shut tight. His body felt so heavy that he couldn’t even open his eyes. "If I die, please delete my browser history and destroy my hard drive."

To be fair, he was just being overdramatic.

He had already taken the medicine that Moon Noa had made for him, so he was already starting to feel better.

The medicine tastes bad, but it works quickly and effectively.

Ki Gayoon clicked his tongue at Yuno’s dramatic ass. "Are you hiding things you shouldn’t possess in there?"

"No— I just have a lot of screenshots of male porn actors in my hard drive."

"Why do you have screenshots of male porn actors, you punk? Is my body not enough to spark your desires, huh?"

"I don’t use them like that, Hyung— I need them as reference for my drawings."

"Then use me instead. Don’t look at other men’s naked bodies when you already have me."

Aigoo.

"Hyung, is that the Esper in you talking or...?"

"That’s what I want to find out, remember?"

Right.

Let’s not talk about that again.

"Yuno-ya."

"It’s really strange to hear you call me that, Hyung."

"Babe Princess it is then."

"No, please just call me normally."

"Okay, my Little Babe Princess."

Tsk.

I shouldn’t have complained.

"Why do you not believe that you’re worthy of love, Yuno-ya?"

"I just don’t."

It wasn’t like Yuno was ignoring Ki Gayoon’s question, and he wasn’t being lazy either.

I just don’t know how to answer that properly.

Yuno was locked up in a place where the adults who raised him and his colleagues taught them that they were disposable "human chargers" for the replaceable "human weapons." Those bastards took away their pride and dignity in order to make them feel less of a human until they lost their sense of worth.

It took him years to recover what little self-worth was left him in.

But gaining a bit of confidence didn’t magically erase the effect of the sexual, emotional, physical, and psychological abuse that he had gone through in the Lab.

Yeah, deep inside, Yuno was still a person with low self-esteem.

I hate that I become vulnerable when I’m sick.

And now that he was feeling better than earlier, he felt embarrassed.

"Are you disappointed in me, Hyung?" Yuno asked awkwardly. "You know that I don’t believe I’m worthy of love, so you probably already know that I have low self-esteem. I just overcompensate by acting brave and indifferent to mask my vulnerability. In short, I’m a fake."

"I don’t think the bravado you show when you talk back to me is fake, though."

"Well, Hyung make it easy for me to be mad at you."

"See? That bravado is real."

Pfft.

Yuno had to bite his lower lip to stop himself from laughing.

Hyung is good at making me annoyed, but he’s better at making me feel better.

"Don’t bite your lip," Ki Gayoon scolded him. "That’s my job."

Aigoo.

Yuno opened his eyes and gave Ki Gayoon a dire stare. "So, why aren’t you doing your job these days, huh? The Mana in your Core is decreasing, isn’t it?"

"I can still manage."

"You know Team Leader Bambi-ssi will criticize me if your Mana dropped to the Red Zone, right?"

If an Esper’s Mana dropped and hit the ’Red Zone,’ that meant the Esper was close to going on a Rampage. Once that happened, every Guide near the Esper in the Red Zone would know— especially the high-class Guides like Bambi.

"I won’t let my Mana hit the Red Zone, so don’t worry about it."

"Why don’t you just receive your daily Mana again, Hyung? You’re stressing me out with your "experiment.""

"Fine. But after you recover."

"Why? I just have a fever."

"Just how low do you think of me if you think I’ll ask you to guide me when you’re sick?"

"No, it’s not like that, Hyung. I just remembered something similar to our situation," Yuno said, pausing for a moment. "You know that I draw BL, right?"

I knew Hyung would think I wanted a kiss.

But Yuno didn’t hate the idea. _{fɾeewebnoveℓ.co๓}

Yeah, I’ve missed this.

That’s it?

Look at Hyung’s naughty smile— I can already imagine how he wants me to make it up to him.

I’m actually looking forward to it.

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