Let's Get Married novel Chapter 445

These are the word from the bottom of his broken heart.

He never did anything he would regret in the past 30 years. He never has any regrets and he would never feel sad about any decision he made. Now, he has his first regret. Letting her come back is his biggest mistake.

He thought letting go or not doesn’t matter at all in a relationship, and that he would have a bigger chance because he had been there for her. He uses five years of effort to exchange for a chance to be together with Lily. However, he’s defeated by his cockiness.

“Ryan…” Lily calls his name softly, “Don’t say that. I wronged you. I’m sorry.”

“Don’t apologize. I told you, you don’t need to do anything about my feelings.” Most of the time, he labels himself as a gentleman and he wouldn’t do anything to force her to accept his love. However, he did many things for her without her consent and she is kind of forced to accept his good deeds. Why should she apologize for what he did?

“Stop saying that. I treasure all that you have done for Adair and I. I’m grateful for everything you’ve done.” The feeling Lily had for Ryan is, in a way, different. It is so special, sometimes she won’t even know how to explain it.

“Five years ago, you rescued me from the reservoir in J City. Then we met in another state. It was all destined. However, I helped you escape and stayed with you for five years, it is totally a selfish move. I knew that you will eventually be gone one day.” After everything that he had been through, he learned to take thing easily. He knew this is coming but what he didn’t expect was it would hurt so much.

“Please know that knowing you is the luckiest thing that happened to me.” Lily doesn’t want him to feel bad about himself. She never wanted that for him.

“Sometimes I wonder, how tight did fate entangled you and Rex that you both could meet in overseas after so long.” All that he wanted couldn’t fight against the fated destiny.

If it is a life that refers to everything Rex and Lily had been through, then losing Lily cost Ryan his life too.

He never believed in fate. If he does, he had already got himself killed in the black market. However, he does now.

“Lily, I guess we will have to go back to where we started now,” Ryan says bitterly. He knows once everything is out today, their relationship will be frozen and it is impossible to move forward anymore.

Lily panics. She is afraid that Ryan doesn’t understand what he meant for her. “Ryan, please, don’t say that anymore. How can we go back when we have been through so much together? You are as important as my family, and this will never change.”

Of course Ryan knows that he is important to her but he doesn’t want to be just a random family member.

Ryan put his hand on his forehead and covers half of his face. He closes his eyes where Lily couldn’t see and tries to suppress the feeling of tearing. He remains the calmness in his voice and says, “If this is your choice, I wish you all the best.”

The moment this comes out from Ryan, it reminds Lily of Vivian and what she did last night. She finally understands the difference between self-love and the love for another person. If you really love someone, you’ll respect their choice instead of holding onto it so tight that it hurt everyone.

Lily replies in a choked voice, “Ryan, you deserve better.”

She could never leave Rex in this lifetime. Not only because of what happened for the past five years, but it is also because she is the mother of his child. She doesn’t deserve Ryan.

Ryan smiles, and says in the lightest tone, “I had already missed my chance.”

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An hour later, Lily walks out of the apartment. She doesn’t even remember what she said. All she ever remembers is the sad face of Ryan on the couch.