Lost in You novel Chapter 1

My husband and I have been married for three years, but I have no children. The reason is very simple. He has been injured in a car accident before, and is unable to have children. We could not live as a husband and wife like normal couples. Our marriage is like a furnishing, how can we have children?

Only he and I know about this. My mother-in-law doesn't know it. She comes here every day and says that I cannot have a baby, and I don’t do a good job as a wife.

If her son could give birth to a baby, his ex-wife should have born him one.

He couldn't give birth, he couldn't even erect up, he punches and hits me every day in order to vent his sexuality, and I hold back tears without saying a word.

But I know only the pain in my heart. I have no feelings for him, and I was forced to marry him.

Why should I live like this? Why should I like a good to be traded? But thinking of my parents’ tearful faces, I know that my father didn’t make me marry him just to please Neil, but no matter what I asked, they didn’t tell me, and I can only marry him.

For our family, I have no other choices.

After three years, I give up resisting. Even when he hits me, both physically and mentally, I don’t resist. But the most ridiculous thing happens; he actually forces me to have a baby!

"We must have a child! I can't let others know that I can't have a child, especially Nash! You must bear a child for me!" Neil stares at me with the blood-red eyes, looking at me nervously.

I sneer, wipe the blood at the corner of the mouth that has just been beaten by him and say, "How? Your sperm are all dead. If you can, your previous wives will not cheat you.”

"Shut up!" Neil becomes so ashamed that he slaps me again.

I know his pain point; I look at him in revenge, and laugh.

"You are a eunuch, and you want to have children! It's ridiculous!" I shrink in the corner, shivering, but I will not shrink back, otherwise what fun is there in my life? Sometimes I am thinking, I might as well let him kill me, so I can be relieved.

"Pang", he drops the vase on the table, Neil completely loses his mind, "No, you must have a child; I can't let others know that I can't have a child! Yes, as long as you have a child, and no matter whom the father of the child is! Yes, you can go outside and seduce any man! Anyone! Even a tramp on the street! I beg you!"

"What did you say?" He asks me to have other man’s child! Suddenly anger comes out of me, "What do you think I am?" Neil doesn't give me even the least respect. He only treats me as his personal belongings, which he can fiddle with freely. My life and my dignity are nothing to him.

"No matter what! You have to do what I ask you to do!" Neil's almost crazy attitude doesn't let me have any chance to argue with him. His crazy fat face makes me sick whenever I see him.

My life is really disgusting.