Lost in You novel Chapter 28

I close my eyes and buries in his arms with peace of mind. James, you always appeared when I am at a loss.

The crowd explodes.

"Mr James, does the James family know your relationship? Will you be allowed to associate with such people?"

"I hear that Mr James plans to have a family marriage. Is this true? What is Miss Carolina's identity? Mistress?"

"I'm sorry to have troubled you." James says.

The car has left the noisy place.

I shake my head weakly. I never thought that there would be a day when people from all over the world would scold me.

"Be assured that these remarks will disappear immediately, and no word will be left at that time." James comforts me and touches my head.

But how can this blame him? It is my fault that I first found him and that I fall in love with him first.

"James, you put me at the alley of my house first, I will go home first." I say weakly.

James gives me a hard look and says, "Your home may be surrounded by the media."

"Oh." I close my eyes in despair.

Is it Neil? Is he retaliating against me?

"Carolina, look at me!" James embraces my shoulders in fear and asks me to look into his eyes.

He is so scared and upset.

"I beg you, don't give up the love between us because of this. Please, this thing is just an episode, we will get better and better in the future." His eyes are so earnest.

Do I regret it? It seems a little bit, but not because I regretted falling in love with James, but because I couldn't handle everything well and then fall in love with him.

I gently rest my head on his shoulder, "Don't be afraid, I won't, but I think we must calm down and let this thing calm down, maybe there will be a better solution in the future. What do you say? "

In the car and in this small space, this moment of intimacy and ease make me unwilling to leave him.

James says to me over and over again, I love you, I love you.

My dear, I love you too, but it is a regret of my life that we did not meet you at the best time.

The gate of my neighborhood is full of people, so I have to sneak in through the back door.

All are here.

No one speaks, and they all look at me the moment I enter the door.

Mom cries, and tears clearly visible on her face.

When she sees me, she shouts, "Our family doesn't have you as our daughter! Now, everyone knows that you are wanton!"

"Sister, you know what. Everyone in the school is scolding me, saying that I have such a sister, and I am not a good thing." My sister Elaine grumbles.

"I'm sorry." I stand in front of them in guilt, like a sinner.

"We can’t out-marry a family like the James family. You can live with Neil well." Mom keeps crying.

Dad smokes one cigarette after another.

It seems that our house collapses all at once.

Yeah, the whole world knows my scandal, but the world knows it too. I love James and he loves me.

But my family is my weakness and my bottom line, and I can't drag them down to satisfy my desire.

What shall I do in the future?

It may be that James is putting pressure on it. The articles on the Internet are quickly withdrawn, and the media surrounding the house also go away. It seems that nothing has happened.

But I know how it affects our family.

My mother is afraid of going out; my dad too. My sister will cry secretly every time I go home, my brother doesn’t say anything, but I know he has a lot to bear.

I suddenly fall into a kind of anxiety. I want to see James, but I am afraid to see James. I want to be with him, but I couldn't. It seem like I am in a desperate situation all at once.

I start to have insomnia and take a lot of sleeping pills every night, but I still stare at the ceiling with my eyes open for one whole night.

How do you live like this? I suppress my missing about James and refuse to meet him. It seems that I would feel more balanced in my heart. Because my family is suffering at home, how could I be so happy!

Neil appears, at the right time.

"Mom, Dad, I'll pick Carolina home." Neil still pretends to be kind.

Mom is grateful, "Okay, okay, I'll let Carolina clean up and go back with you."

I stand motionless and look at him. I can't help but disgusted.

"Get out!" I point at Neil.