Lost in You novel Chapter 44

why? What happened?

I shouted in collapse, but no one answers me.

"Stop! Stop! I beg you, I can't lose my child! I beg you!" I cry helplessly, the light above my head makes me a little dizzy, thinking that all this is untrue.

But the huge colic from my lower abdomen tell me that I really lost my child.

"What's it called, your child is gone! Be honest."

I am silent, crying silently biting my teeth.

Suddenly, I seem to have lost everything.

I remembered seeing Neil's face when I faint. He is smiling, grinning and happy.

It's him! It must be him! He takes me into the hospital and into the abortion room.

The dense pain is surging like a tide, and I seem to have an illusion of pain, and the imagination could finally come to an end.

The child is killed, Neil would divorce me, and then my father is saved. But I have lost my child forever. I once greeted his arrival with joy.

"Sorry, Mom couldn’t protect you."

I am helped out of the operating room.

There is no one around, only me.

I can't stand the pain, despair, sadness, and other emotions haven't time to come, my heart is filled with hatred at once, Neil, wait! I must revenge this!

It must be him! Definitely is!

I shiver to take my things, take out my phone and want to call Neil.

Panic footsteps suddenly appeared in the corridor, and I look up.

James walks slowly towards me, asking me in uncertain tone.

There is hope in his eyes, but when he sees my pale face and bloodless lips, the hope in his eyes suddenly vanishes.

"Child? Where’s the child?" James looks at me carefully.

"Oh, James, wait for me!"

Behind is the mumbling voice of my mother.

I stop while holding my phone.

James looks at me stubbornly, staring straight at me.

I don't know how to answer.

"It's gone?" Mom says panting.

I see James's eyes quickly stained with anger.

There is no one around, there is no one, "It’s gone" I whisper.

It’s my fault. It ’s because I don't protect my child.

James is tight all over, and I see the blue muscles on his forehead.

He opens his mouth, and closes it, and finally says, "Why don't you tell me about your pregnancy? Why!"

Tears twirled in his eyes, and he just holds back the tears.

"Oh, why did you do the abortion? I go to James and say, he was so happy to know about pregnancy. It seems that we are still a late step. Don’t you say you don’t want to do the abortion? "Mom walks over and helps me shake my body.

"I, I don't know, I don't know." I say weakly.

James sneers, "You don't know? How come you don't know." He looks at me in disgust, "Isn’t it because you do the abortion so Neil will divorce you? Only then can you save your father! This child! What is it in your eyes? You tell me why you don't tell me, because you don't want to tell me from the beginning, right! Because you want him to be Neil ’s child!"

His angry voice echoes in the empty corridor, and I freeze at once.

"No! Not the way you think!" I cry anxiously.

My mother helps me and says, "What did you do? I ask you to do the abortion, and you did it?"

James looks at me with disappointment, his eyes are bloody red, and finally he chokes, "You know how happy I am when I know you are pregnant? I've been expecting you to have a child! But you have never planned to let him recognize me as his dad, right? He finally becomes your bargaining chip! Carolina, how could you do this? How could this be?"

I step forward in panic, trying to hold his hand, but I don't dare, and I vigorously argue with him, “I don't know, I really don't know what’s going on. I never think of this.”

"Enough!" James interrupts me angrily, "You've been lying to me from the beginning. I forgive you again and again, but your, you put a knife in my heart!"

His eyes are bleak, and his previous hope has been extinguished, which makes me feel bad.

I know that no matter what I say, James will not listen to my explanation. I look around helplessly.

No one believes me.

"Actually, I never think of forcing you, how can I be willing? Even if you don't divorce Neil within the specified time, I would make up for the money your father misappropriated. I just think, even if you don't think of me, for the sake of my father, you will have to be completely separated from Neil, Carolina, you let me down."

A tear finally comes out of the corner of his eyes, he holds back, but his trembling lips let me know how sad he is at this time.

"You never think about being with me." James gives me a cold look and turns away.