Lost in You novel Chapter 58

I think my life is already miserable enough, but I don't expect it to be even worse.

Mom chose to die in front of his father’s grave and chose to follow him. I never know their relationship would be so good, so good that mother could abandon us and abandon everything to follow dad.

I really can't cry, I cry too many times, and there are no more tears to shed.

"Mom! Why do you have to abandon us! Don't you still love us?" I ask, holding my mother's body that has no temperature.

Or dad is really important to mom, and she can't live without him.

But no one can survive in this world.

"You are cruel." I gently stroke my mother's face, and suddenly find that my mother has a light makeup and put on her favorite clothes.

The entire cemetery is quiet and terrible, only the wind rustling through the treetops, only me murmuring.

My mother committed suicide, and the camera in the cemetery records how she entered the cemetery, and she even wrote her will.

Preparing for the funeral is familiar to me.

Elaine’s eyes are red. She raises her hands and gives a slap, "Sister Carolina, this is the last time I call you sister, do you know who makes this result?"

In her eyes shines the cold light I am not unfamiliar with, "It's all because of you! Because you insist to stay with James! Because of you, I was insulted, I can't go to school! Dad left, Mom is gone! You are a killer! "

I actually feel that Elaine is right, everything happened because of me.

"Yes. It’s me."

I numbly look at everything in front of me and slap myself hard.

"I break the whole family."

"Sister! What are you doing! Stop!" The younger brother holds me, and his bloodshot eyes are tired, "This is already the case at home. This is not your fault!"

"Why don't you blame her! Isn't it all her fault? Why can’t she live the normal life after marriage? Why should our family be broken?"

The empty hall echoes their arguments, and I look at everything in front of me again and feel that this might be the end of life.

It is retribution. I say that if I talk to James again, they would have to die, and they left me one after another.

So weak, so painful.

My sister screams, "I hate you Carolina! I hate you! The person who should die is you! Why don't you die!"

I also want to know why the person who should die is not me.

Next is my mother's funeral. In just a few days, the two funerals in the family attracted many people's condolences.

"So sorry for it."

"Everything will pass."

I bow down mechanically. I can’t see any hope.

My mother also turns into ashes, I let them mix with the tomb and ashes.

In the future, I will probably live because of revenge. Isabel, I will not make you happy.

There are brothers and sisters at home, and I can't let them get involved in danger.

I have to find a way to get rid of them, and only then will I not drag them down.

Under my arrangement, my brother leaves the school as a soldier, but my sister still refuses to listen to me.

"Who knows what you want to do?" She stares at me.

"Listen to me. OK?" I can't explain too much to her.

Elaine has become like another person, no matter what I do, she will no longer believe me.

"I will arrange you to go to a new place, change your name, change your school, so it will be good for you." I say.

Elaine chuckles, "I won't go to school anymore, anyway my innocence is ruined. I don't care anymore!"

After she says that, she runs out of the house.

"Where are you going, Elaine?" I am anxious to keep up with her, but when I run downstairs, she is gone.

Sitting on the sofa and watching the time on the phone uneasy, it is already midnight, but my sister still doesn't come back.

I have to go out and look for her.

Ever since mother leaves, she often stays at night and I ask her where does she go, she doesn't say anything about it.

Will she go to the bar?

I am in a hurry to find a bar after a bar. I am sweating anxiously, but I still couldn't find my sister.

The hustle and bustle of cheering is all around, and the dim light makes me more and more disturbed.

I remember this bar. It is the place where I first meet James.

I hesitate at the door, not knowing whether to go in.

He was standing in that crowd, looking at me sexy and wild that time.

How do I remember again? I smile and shake my head and walk in.

There is a wave of people inside, deafening.

I see Elaine at a glance.

She is wearing a sexy dress and holding a wine bottle to drink, surrounded by a group of whistling guys.

Why does my sister look like this? I look at everything in front of me in disbelief. The men's lousy gaze lingers on her.

I rush over and push away the crowd, grabbing the wine bottle from my sister's hand.

"Hey! What’s up?" Someone gives me a push.

The younger sister smiles at me drunkenly, "Oh, Carolina."