Lost in You novel Chapter 61

"James, let go of me!" I struggle to push him away.

But James's body is as strong as a wall. No matter how hard I push him, he is still immovable.

Once we were so happy, but now I just want to stay away from him.

James looks at me fiercely. He clasps my hands firmly and puts them on top of my head, and he forcefully penetrates between my legs. I couldn't move.

"James, I hate you!" I shout feebly.

James lowers his head and begins to bite on my neck. The pain creeps on me, and I could only breathe quietly.

Then he raises his head, his eyes are a little gloomy, and he says, "It hurts? Does it hurt? There is something more painful than this."

I close my eyes and don't want to look any more. In my heart, James is not like this. I thought he would never harm me, but I am wrong.

I have long been accustomed to his breaths and his movements. It’s terrible when you get used to something. My body is used to him, and even ready to please him.

"Carolina, you are such a slut. What do you think of yourself?" James chuckles.

I keep silent, biting my mouth, shivering.

James begins to be violent, and I grasp the sheet tightly and endure the pain.

James, is that really who you are? Is it?

Finally, James is content and pulls himself out of my body, leaving me lying on the bed.

"Are you satisfied?" I ask.

At this time, I really don't have any hope for James. There can only be hatred between me and him.

The death of my father and my mother, and the breakdown of our family, all these are the things that we can never get over.

James is breathing heavily.

The starry sky above us is so beautiful, but the vastness is like a black hole, and the darkness is really scary.

"Carolina, we..."

His hoarse voice shows that he is exhausted, and I immediately interrupt him before he finishes, "It's impossible between us. James, you should have thought that there are some things I would never forgive."

James is breathing hard and I close my eyes.

I feel cold, so cold that I can’t help shivering.

"Carolina, why are you so cruel?" James' voice is soft, as if he is talking to himself.

"Because I have never loved you, and so are you." I say.

I have drawn a conclusion to our love. It’s hasty, but I don't want to have any relation with him anymore.

Let it be.

I get out of bed and find my clothes to put on, "James, I'm leaving."

While I am wearing my clothes, I say, "When we meet in the future, we are enemies."

"Carolina!" James stands in front of me suddenly; he looks at me horribly and says, "Do you know what you are talking about?"

Of course I know.

I don’t speak, and walk past him.

"Carolina, stop!" James roars.

I walk on as if I didn’t hear him.

“I can't stop. I can't stop.” I warn myself over and over again.

When James doesn't catch up, I heave a sigh of relief, because I am afraid that I wouldn't be able to hold on.

The wind in the early morning is so cold. I wrap myself in my clothes, and walk slowly step by step, as if the road would never end.

I don't know how I manage to go back. It is daylight by the time I get home.

Elaine is sitting in the living room waiting for me.

When she sees me coming in, she looks at me immediately.

"How does it feel to be with your lover?" She still wears yesterday's makeup, "Why can't you break up with that man?"

I look at her and say, "From now on there will be nothing but hatred between him and me."

I speak very slowly and gently, but with a kind of determination.

Elaine doesn’t say anything, and looks at me incredulously.

"I'm very tired." I stand in front of her tiredly and say, "I have to rest first."

I am exhausted physically and mentally, and my body seems to have been drained of energy.

I throw myself on the bed and sleep for a whole day and night.

When I wake up again, I already know what I am going to do.

I want to revenge on Isabel.

Someone knocks on the door, and then there comes my sister's impatient voice, "What are you doing here?"

"I am here to take your sister home."

It’s the last person I want to see.

I get up and go out.

Neil smiles and looks at me, "You haven't been home for so long, so I come here to see you and pick you up by the way."