Lost in You novel Chapter 78

I hurry on. I don't know why James suddenly shows up here, but when I think of the phone call he gave me, I feel nervous.

Would James know everything? I always have that hunch.

The car has disappeared, and I am relieved. Finally, I walk to a busy area, and stop a car.

In the car, I have butterflies in my stomach. If James knows everything, what would he do to me?

I shake my head, thinking he wouldn’t know it.

I think a lot all the way back. A long time later, the driver stops the car at my house.

I walk out of the car tiredly.

I stand on the spot for a long time before I finally regain consciousness. What should I do now?

Did James already know something? I am a little flustered.

Just then the phone rings and I am startled to see that it is James.

I breathe a sigh of relief and make my voice sound the same as usual.

"Are you looking for me?” I ask.

James's voice is as worried as ever. "Where are you now?"

"I'm at home." I make myself relax.

"Home?” James is surprised.

"Yes, I am at home now. Why did you find me just now? I have time now."

James suddenly stops speaking at the other end, and I only hear the rapid breathing.

"What's the matter with you?” I wonder if James already knows something.

James's voice softens. "Nothing," he says, "I'll go to you later."

"Alright." I shake my head and hang up the phone, perhaps I thought too much.

Ella is in the kindergarten, and I wait them at home. James comes soon.

"What's the matter with you? You look worried." I say.

"When did you come back today?" James frowns.

I smile unnaturally and say, "Just now. Why?"

“Something happened today and I am worried about you." James looks at me and breathes a sigh of relief. He walks slowly forward me and hugs me gently. "I can't lose you anymore."

James is a little fragile today. I pat him on the back and say, "What's wrong with you today?"

James doesn’t say anything. At last he looks at me for a long time before he says, "Nothing. I thought I might not see you today, and I almost had a car accident.”

He smiles, with gentleness and glad in his eyes.

"Are you all right? Did you get hurt?" I quickly check James up and down. James grabs my hand and says, "Should I take it off to let you check it?"

He looks at me playfully.

My face turns red. I push him away and say, "What are you doing? Jerk."

James squeezes my hand. "You don't know how scared I was just now. I was afraid that I would never see you again."

I feel moved. It’s so warm that someone always cares about you in this world.

All the tensions in Porter's room are gone. James and I hug each other tightly, and we share the same feeling of relieve.

"By the way, I'll take you to meet someone later." James says.

"Oh, alright." I close my eyes in his arms. I do not know who he wants to bring me to, but no one can destroy the serenity I enjoy now.

To my relief, James doesn’t find it. I'm glad he doesn’t.

James insists on hugging me to sleep. The sun shines on him, and he is smiling at me.

It is a special moment to cherish, for the storm is just around the corner.

"Don't look at me." James covers my eyes, the warmth of his palms warming my eyelids.

I am so nervous that I forget to breathe, peeping through the fingers, watching him snigger.

I feel satisfied now. No matter what would happen in the future, I feel satisfied. That’s enough.

After lunch, James takes me to meet the person in the afternoon.

“Should I get a present?" I ask.

James gives me one look as he focuses on driving. "No, you are the best gift to her."

"Oh?" What does it mean?

"Why?” I tilt my head to look at him.

James laughs, "Because this person misses you so much."

“Me?" I point at myself and pout. "I don't know anyone around you. How could someone miss me? We didn’t know each other before."

When he says that, I suddenly feel nervous. Is it someone I have known before?

The one James knows, and misses Carolina. Who?

I see. It's Elaine.

My sister.

But as soon as I realize it, I suddenly become nervous, but I still keep the same look on my face.

James gives me a look. "Carolina's sister, she's missed Carolina as much as I have for so many years. So, for the sake of her depression, go and see her and make her feel better."

I feel anxious but force a smile, "James, I'm not Carolina. I don't have the time or the kindness to comfort someone's sister. You take me as her substitute, so I have to be the substitute in front of everyone that knows Carolina? I'm not a heart of gold."

I can't help it. I don't know whether Elaine is doing well or not. I just ignore her for fear that she will break down.

And my younger brother.

They are the only family I have in this world.

I could only pretend to be angry.

I can't expose the true emotion now. I can't tell everyone that I'm not dead and I have come back.