Love Me As I Am novel Chapter 56

*Luke's Point Of View*

I stared at myself through the mirror as I raked my hair with my fingers.

My eyes lingered on the black suit that is a bit far from me, positioned neatly.

I have a day left for the wedding and I am so nervous in a bad way, or good way? Well I don't know.

Me getting married is exciting but the only thing wrong is that I don't love her. I don't know why I thought this could work. I'm clearly having thoughts. Anne's beautiful and all but I don't love her, I don't.

I agreed to this because of the orphanage, I was ready to do it but now something is holding me back. Anne and I don't share a feeling, a feeling that I share with....Sandra.

I know that I and Sandra have been distance and that's suppose to make me fail a bit out of love with her but....every single time I see her walked pass me with a shy smile I think of what am missing.

I'm missing Sandra.

I snapped quickly out of my thoughts when a knock was heard on my door.

"Come in," I sighed with my eyes glued on the door.

Sandra's head poked out and she grimaced at me completely stepping inside.

"I am sorry for disturbing but we are leaving in thirty minutes," she told me and I nodded.

My eyes dwell on her face for too long and I let it linger on her dress. She was wearing a rosy dress and it look good on her.

Her eyes moved away from mine and laid on my white tuxedo.

"I'll help you with that," she walked to my tux and grabs it gently.

"Thanks," I smiled and she moved over to my luggage, carrying it towards the door.

"Nah, it's okay. I can hold that myself," I said walking to her, trying to get the luggage from her grip.

"No it's fine," she sighed tilting her head. "It's my job."

"You know that won't let this go," I smirked and she chuckled. "Fine." she released the bag and I laughed.

"That's it," I teased and she rolled her eyes walking towards the door with my suit in her hands. I turned back to my luggage to check if everything are in place.

"Are you really going to marry her?" I turned swiftly towards her soft voice. I've never heard her so broken before.

Her eyes were glossy and her lips trembled. "I don't know but I have to, for the orphanage."

She nodded her with realization, "I know," she whispered. I walked towards her and engulfed her with a hug. She sniffed and cried freely into my chest.

I hate seeing her this way but I can't do anything about it, nothing at all.

"I understand but it still hurts," she sniffed as she raised her head to look at me.