Love You Like I Used To Forget It (Millie Bridge) novel Chapter 13

Chapter 13

Chapter 13

I always felt there was something between the two of them, but I loved Irvin too much.

I loved him so deeply that even when it hurt, even when I was convinced something was going on, I still chose to believe him when he said there wasn’t.

I’d try harder to please him, cling to him, and exhaust every means to win his heart back.

Whenever anything happened between him and Julianne, I become skittish and terrified of losing him for good. And when he came back, I couldn’t help but ask him over and over if he truly loved me.

Even though I was afraid of pain, I once resorted to self–harm, hoping it would bring him back from Julianne’s side.

But in Irvin’s eyes any fear and despair were nothing but hysterics.

Instead of pity, my actions only made him see me as a troublemaker. Not only did he not return, but his disdain for me grew, and he saw everything I did as just another tantrum.

The me in my old journal couldn’t figure out why he insisted there was nothing between him and Julianne while treating me so cruelly.

Now I understand.

Irvin did things only lovers would do with Julianne while claiming their innocence because he didn’t want to admit it. He didn’t want the affair out in the open or to face a messy divorce.

On the other hand, he wanted to break me piece by piece and to drive me mad until I’d suffer an “accident“. Being widowed was much simpler for him.

Just like I thought, he wanted to have his cake and eat it too

How pathetic that I once thought his denial meant he still loved me. I even doubted myself, wondering if I was truly the petty one who imagined things that weren’t there.

But now, I realized the truth.

There was a saying I found fitting. Instead of internalizing the pain and tearing themselves apart, people might as well direct their madness outward. They could blame anyone but themselves.

I let out a cold chuckle and responded, “So I’m the problem? How about you take a look at yourself?”

Before Irvin could say anything, I pressed on. “Don’t make me say it. Let’s have the audience weigh in instead. Aren’t you two exactly the star–crossed lovers they’re all whispering about?”

I turned to the women who had been gossiping when Irvin walked in with Julianne earlier.

“Come now, ladies. Tell us what you were thinking and saying when you saw my dear husband escorting my beloved sister inside.”

The women’s faces paled instantly.

It was one thing to gossip in private or murmur discreetly, but to speak openly on the record was impossible. Not a single one dared step forward.

clair

I chuckled and continued, “If you won’t speak, allow me to recount it for you. ‘I heard Emilia and Ms were kidnapped together, and Mr. Sawyer didn’t hesitate to save Ms. Sinclair. I didn’t believe it before, but now I

do.‘

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“Emilia truly means nothing to Mr. Sawyer.‘

She deserves this for forcing herself between two lovers when she’s clearly unwanted!‘

“And didn’t Mr. Sawyer and Ms. Sinclair grow up as childhood sweethearts? If Emilia hadn’t thrown her money around and forced him to marry her when he was down and out…”

When I recited their words perfectly, their faces turned ghostly pale in embarrassment.

I don’t know how loving Irvin turned me into someone so willing to endure. But the real me–the one who never tolerated injustice and always held grudges–was resurfacing.

Especially now, when their words had caused Grandma such worry.

“It wasn’t just them,” I added. “Plenty of people were thrilled when they saw you and Julianne together. You say I’m petty and see th everywhere. Are you saying all these people are petty, too?

“Are you two the only pure and innocent ones here? So pure you could lie under the same blanket and do nothing but chat?”

Someone in the crowd couldn’t hold back a laugh.

The look on Irvin’s face was awful.

“Emilia, can’t you stop making a scene in public?” he snapped, stepping forward as if to grab me.

I stepped back and retreated quickly as though avoiding something filthy.

My disdainful evasion made his expression twist with rage.

Then, before he could say another word, I abruptly switched to a tearful expression and said, “You always say I’m causing a scene, that my mind is filthy. But have you ever stopped to look at yourself? If I were the only one suspecting something, that would be my problem.

“But everyone thinks the same. Are we all wrong? Are you the only one without a problem? Do you not know the awful things people say about me, how they mock me? If there’s really nothing between you and Julianne, then prove it!

“Tell everyone here, right now, that there’s absolutely no romantic relationship between the two of you! That you don’t have the slightest feelings for her! Also, was I the one who forced you to marry me? No! It was you who pursued me!”

It was Irvin who chased after me and made me fall so deeply in love that I couldn’t pull myself out. After using me, he now wanted to discard me while blaming me for ruining their “true love“.

He was despicable and shameless.

And yet, he had the nerve to act like I was the villain who tore them apart!

“And since when was helping someone out of financial ruin a crime? If you really think I forced you to marry me back then with the money I had and that I destroyed your so–called star–crossed love, fine!

“Pay me back every cent with interest right now, and I’ll divorce you immediately. I’ll even give you both my blessing! You don’t want to divorce me because you don’t want to split the assets, yet you still want to play the victim?

“I don’t owe you anything, so what gives you the right to trample all over me?”

If he didn’t want to divorce and divide the assets, trying instead to drive me insane, then fine–I’d play crazy. I’d

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expose everything and drag their sordid affair into the open

I wouldn’t let them get away with it. I wouldn’t allow them to play innocent while making me out to be the deranged, troublesome wife everyone laughed at.

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