My Heart only Beats for You (Natalie Godfrey) novel Chapter 1284

Selina smiled wearily, "Yes, when I am sad I really have no strength to get out of bed and eat."

"Then I'll bring you the food. What do you wish to eat?" Matthew asked.

"Anything is fine."

"Okay," Matthew walked out of the room.

After Matthew left, Selina sat up on the bed.

She drew her knees to her chest, and stared into space.

How could she make up for what she had done wrong towards Brennan?

Her heart suddenly tightened.

Selina felt that she could never make it up to the man. The psychologist said that he had been seeing him for 10 years or so. Brennan must have dealt with pressing mental issues ever since the junior year of high school. He must have never had a happy childhood. His youth had been lost. Even if Selina tried, she would never be able to make up for the torture he had suffered in the past.

Selina pinched her thighs hard. The pain shot through her body.

She hated herself for being so cruel and playing such pranks. If she had not done such a thing, Brennan would not have...

She bit her lip tightly.

Whatever it was, she had to pay Brennan a visit the next day.

She wanted to release Brennan.

It was not Brennan's fault that he had attacked Lothar, but hers.

She had to apologize to Brennan.

Selina bit her lip even harder.

She hoped that Brennan would forgive her.

Matthew returned to the room.

He had with him some pasta.

The pasta was lightly seasoned but it looked delicious.

"I was afraid that you would be hungry so I cooked something simple," Matthew said.

She nodded, "It looks tasty."

"It doesn't just look good but it tastes good too."

Selina smiled sweetly.

Matthew handed a plate to Selina.

Selina hesitated, "Do you really want to eat in bed?"

She had never eaten a meal in bed.

"Yes. Let's try it once," Matthew's tone was gentle.

Selina contemplated for a second before started to eat. Matthew ate next to her too.

Minutes later, they had finished everything on the plates.

Matthew put the empty dishes on the bedside table, "I'll clean it up tomorrow. Let's go back to sleep."

Selina blinked her eyes at Matthew, "It's not good to sleep straight away after eating."

"You're upset today, hence let's do what we want. There are no rules so don't worry about it."

Selina cried out, "Matthew, you are spoiling me."

"Yes, so let me continue okay?" Matthew looked at Selina lovingly.

"But if you spoil me, you will regret it in the future."

"No, I will not."

Selina sighed softly.

Selina was right. After six months, he had completely recovered and had had the capability to end the marriage.

However, he hadn't been able to make himself do it.

His principles did not allow him to do so.

After the six months that Saoirse had spent taking care of him, he could not bring himself to be cruel to her.

Initially, he had really planned to be with Saoirse. That was why he took the plane back to visit Ludwik. He had wanted to tell Ludwik about the marriage between him and Saoirse.

But even so, he had complicated feelings and a lot of unwillingness.

That was because he did not and had never loved Saoirse.

He hadn't wanted to be tied down to a woman he had never and couldn't love. On the other hand, he knew he couldn't just leave Saoirse.

"Matthew, you were at a loss," Selina looked Matthew's eyes. "Your mind couldn't bear the conflict in your heart, hence it chose to erase all memories so that you could start over again. Am I right?"

"Selina," Matthew gave a long sigh, "I think you understand me more than I understand myself."

"Well, the third party always knows better. Matthew promised me you will let go of the guilt you had. You were never wrong in the first place. You didn't choose for this to happen."

Matthew's lips pursed tightly together.

After a while, he said, "I promised to compensate Saoirse for that six months. After that, I will owe her nothing. We will be done with each other. From then onwards, Selina, we need not worry about anything anymore."

Selina nodded in agreement, "Okay."

"Let's rest now."

"I'm afraid we'll turn into pigs if we sleep so much."

"That's not necessarily bad. The reason people have so much problems in live is because we are humans. If the only price for a carefree life is to become an animal, that's fine. I don't see it as a bad thing to just spend your life eating and sleeping."

Selina was stunned by Matthew's words, "Your way of thinking has always been different from most people."

Matthew hugged Selina at the waist, "I could say the same of you. I've never seen a girl who is quirkier than you."