She meant to say it would be a waste of his time and life purpose to be her guardian angel.
But she worried that Carle might misinterpret her meaning.
Yet, Carle still misinterpreted her words. His breathing started to quicken, and his voice was croaky, “Liz, are you not willing to befriend me? I will stop bugging you. We can go back to how we used to be.”
Elisa was alarmed and frantically explained, “No, that’s not what I meant. Don’t misunderstand. I mean, we can still be friends. You have always been my friend and brother in my heart. I was trying to say that you don’t have to protect me because it’s very tiring.”
Carle breathed a sigh of relief. He relished Elisa’s willingness to go back to being friends with him.
But he would still protect her no matter what. Elisa was the most important woman to him. He refused to let anything bad happen to her or to let anyone bully her. Even if it meant sacrificing his own life to keep her whole, he would do it in a heartbeat.
“I won’t trouble you anymore, Liz. Don’t worry. I have thought about a lot of things recently. I realize I have put you in a difficult position before this. Forgive me, Liz.”
Forgive me, Liz.
Carle had always wanted to say that to Elisa.
He admitted that he was selfish. He knew Elisa had never loved him, but he was unwilling to let her go. Instead, he forced her to stay with him, and that was unfair to her.
He was stubborn and refused to let go. Looking back now, he realized he was too much.
“Don’t say that, Carle.”
Elisa understood love clouded a person’s judgment. It was natural and inevitable for Carle to want to keep her within arm’s reach.
“Do you hate me, Liz? I was too selfish.”
“Never.” Elisa soothed Carle, “I know how it feels to love someone. But Carle, at the end of the day, it’s about fate between two people. The person I love is not you, and the person Sheen loves doesn’t love her back.”
Carle’s eyes glistened with inexplicable emotion. He didn’t say anything.
Elisa carried on and said, “Actually, Sheen is a good woman.”
Carle twitched his lips and said with a wry smile, “Rach also told me I am a good person.”
Elisa pouted in response. She knew that it was time for her to shut up.
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