Ours novel Chapter 61

Jenny POV

So my plan to try and shift hasn't been going great this far, I searched the internet for things that might help.

I've read online that if you get beaten and needed your wolf to protect you then you'll shift. It's not gonna work with me since I got beaten more than once and almost died twice and still didn't shift.

So plan B it is, I've read that being in shape helps I can hardly move and Stefan will kill me if I go running or do the heavy lifting and tear something in my internal organs. So that's another no, I've read about some kind of demonic seance with a five-point star a wolf heart, and a bloody moon, heck no.

An article caught my eye saying "You are what YOU believe you are". So if I want to be a wolf I should believe I am one and act like it.

I stand in front of my mirror and pretend my hands are claws, I even try roaring and growling as if I had big canine teeth. After a few minutes and feel like an idiot I give up, I'm a mouse pretending to be a wolf.1

I keep on reading articles, I even try weird herbs combination. Some made me sick, others didn't do anything for me. Every day when holden wasn't there with me I would sit down and search the internet, later I'll try whatever new plan I came up with.

One herb combination which by the way tasted like shit made me super sick, I spent most of the night vomiting and I had a high fever.

Stefan had to come and check on me, he had Nala with him, she probably came to check on me and act as his helper. After he checked me up he said that I look like I'm poisoned.

Holden looked at me strangely asking how and what could have poisoned me, I looked at Nala with pleading eyes and she came to the rescue.

"Daddy we ate at the school cafeteria today, the food tasted funny maybe she got sick from it " ~nala

I nod my head agreeing with her lie.

"And you ate from the same food? And you feel fine?" stefans asks as he touch Nala forehead making sure she doesn't have any fever

"I was hungry and I'm wolf so I probably burned through it, but poor jenny she couldn't handle it," ~nala says shrugging as if it was nothing.

"Jace will be packing you lunch from now on," Stefan says I doubt he bought our excuse but let it slide.

I got an IV and a few shots which I didn't like but had to take, holden spent the whole night holding my hand and putting a cold compress on my forehead. It was a long night and I decided to stop trying weird herbs, I felt like I've been through hell the whole night with my body burning inside out.

Nala tried to ask me about what made me sick and I told her I don't wanna talk about it, she respected my request and let it go.

I kept searching and googling for about a full month. I'm free to start moving around again without the threat of tearing my own internals.

Today,Nala is busy with her mates and holden got work to do in the garage so I'm free and alone. I'm walking through the pack territory, I've read that hiking and getting close to nature can help. I stumble upon a lake, I didn't know we had a lake around, seeing the water and tall trees all around it gave me a new idea.

I climb up to one of the trees, I go to the top and look down. Bad idea bad idea. So the plan is to jump toward the water, the adrenalin should be enough to make me shift. I take one deep breath and then another and get ready to jump. It's now or never. And I let go and jump.

What I didn't think about is the water being this deep, I can swim but not that well, and right now I'm drowning. I try to kick my self up but I can't the surface look too far away, that until a strong arm is around my torso and drag me up. Once we're out of the water I look at my rescuer to say thank you but I'm met with an angry Ryland. Ow ow, I'm in trouble.

Ryland POV.