Outcast: The Alpha King's Beloved novel Chapter 181

Linda's POV: 

Not a single day would pass when I would open my eyes in the morning and not long to see Andy's smile.

‘‘Andy, my dear boy, where are you? You are the cutest and brightest child in the world.I can't go on like this without you.’’ I kept telling myself that Andy was still alive.

He was just playing hide and seek with me.

How could he be dead? I needed to see him again.

I didn't care how long it would take.

I roamed the streets, asking everyone I ran into where Andy was, but they all responded with strange glances and answers I didn't want to hear.

I could keep looking for him until the end of time.

I didn't care.

Suddenly, I got to see the only two people in the world I didn't want to see ever again - Jerome and Skylar.

Their mere existence was like a thorn in my flesh, reminding me of the tragedy that had happened a few days ago.

I couldn't shake the memory of Andy falling down in front of me, foaming at his mouth.I killed Andy.

After all, it was I who had prepared the poison.

No, no, it must be a dream.

Andy was still alive.

I stepped back in shame when I met Skylar's gaze.

Why were they looking at me like that? I wanted to run away, but my eyes fell on the bags full of children's toys and clothes in Jerome's hands.

They bought gifts and clothes for their future child.

Skylar was pregnant! I had never felt more envious and angry in my entire life.

My life felt completely empty without Andy, and yet, they looked so happy together.

"No! No! No!"

I pointed my finger at Skylar and shouted angrily.

I stared at her belly and forced the words out of gritted teeth.

"Why do you get to have a baby? What about my Andy? Why..."

I screamed at her with all my might as burning rage hissed through my body like deathly poison, demanding a release.

However, what embarrassed me the most was the look of pity in their eyes.

"Linda, it's time for you to get help.You need to let go of the fact that Andy is dead because you can't go on living like this," Jerome said slowly, holding Skylar's hand.

"What's the point of anything? Andy is dead!" I finally broke down on my knees and cried.

I was filled with a kind of sadness I had no way of dealing with.

"Perhaps you can start again.Find a job and a new life.Who knows? Maybe one day in the future, you will meet someone who really loves you.You have to believe that life can get better, Linda,"

Skylar also persuaded me, even though I didn't expect her to do so.

The calmness in her eyes when she looked at me made me feel embarrassed.

I kept silent, but I realized that I couldn't lie to myself anymore.

Andy was dead, lying in some cold morgue because I didn't even have the money for his burial.

I felt ashamed of myself for being so pathetic.

I must have been the worst mother any child could ever have.

I was filled with so much remorse and self-loathing that I couldn't breathe.

It was all my fault.

I was wrong about everything from the very beginning.

If it weren't for my greed, Andy would still be alive, acting like a spoiled child and calling me his mom.

I couldn't go on like this.

Andy hadn't even been buried yet.

"Please, help me! I need some money.I'll pay it back.My Andy is still lying in the morgue.I don't have the money to bury him.Please..."

As I cried bitterly, I begged the two of them.

"I know I was wrong.I apologize for what I did to you." Skylar looked at me sadly.