Pregnant I left him To His First Love novel Chapter 207

“It’s hard to believe she’s not mine,” Tatum replies, pretending not to hear Leila because divorce or rejection is not something he wants to talk about but also because it’s the truth.

The more time he spends with Amara, the more suspicious he gets and dare he say hopeful that Leila may just be hiding the truth from him as punishment for what he did to them.

It’s not just him who feels a bond to the little spitfire, his wolf does too and just now, when he carried her, it was strong, too fucking strong to ignore. He cannot say what it is but the bond is as strong as what he feels for Leila, the only difference is that it feels filial, not erotic but just as strong.

He’s been tempted a few times to swipe a strand of Amara’s hair or steal her lollipop for saliva samples but he respects Leila too much to do so. Even if Amara turns out to be his, going behind her back would only stoke Leila’s fire, a fire he is desperately looking for how to quench.

“Well believe it, because she isn’t,” Leila replies in a cold voice, one he is so used to, he forces himself to believe that is just how she talks now so it doesn’t hurt as much.

“I was talking about our divorce and rejection?”

Tatum turns to look at her, hiding the pain in his eyes even as it sears his heart. “If I want a DNA test, will you grant me one? I know I have no right but– never mind, I believe you.”

He doesn’t want to upset or make her flare up, it was wrong for him to ask that but something tells him Amara is his child.

“So when?” Leila asks, watching his eyes closely.

He wishes she would just drop it.

Leila is his life, his only source of joy and happiness, life without her has been gloomy and dreary, even with the hostility she has towards him, she doesn’t know how joyful he is that he can be in her presence, that he can see her, smell her, touch her.

She has such a hold on him that even without the matebond, he would still be here, he never should have kept her in the dark about his plans, that was his first mistake but he was scared if he told her, she would let it slip in one of her outbursts with Carmela, just like when she destroyed the cure he got for her.

All of the blame is his, he knows, he did a lot of things wrong to do the right thing and now, even if he cannot right those wrongs, he doesn’t want to do anymore wrong and the chief of those would be divorcing her and accepting the rejection.

Or does he just let her go and accept that there is nothing he can do to soften her heart, nothing he can do to make her smile fondly at him again, to consider falling in love with him again?

With every second that passes, the pain of the rejection grows stronger, he doesn’t even know how he is able to be on his feet but being in her presence right now soothes the pain.