Returning from the Dead: His Secret Lover novel Chapter 487

"You must be kidding. I am getting engaged with Kieran tomorrow!" I smiled. Marlon left in a hurry without turning his head. It seemed that there was a monster behind him.

"Go ahead, Rachael. I won't bother you anymore!" The Matriarch closed the door with a smile on her face.

The bedroom became darker and nothing could be seen.

My chest ached and I tried to cover it with my hand. However, I was laughing.

In the past, when I fell in love with Marlon, I felt I would eventually die on his hand.

At that time, if he gave me a talk, even a word or an indifferent expression, I would get crazy like an idiot for days.

I thought I would keep acting like this and loving him until my breath and heartbeat stopped.

However, looking back, I found my love for him had changed after I gave him my full heart and left behind my dignity to beg him.

The love was no longer deep as before, but combined with a little bit of hate.

Then the hate exceeded the love unconsciously.

Like just now, I knew he was angry for me, but I didn't want to explain to prove my innocence. What I wanted was to pay him back with a knife like how he treated me before.

"Kieran, it seems that I don't love him as before." I said out of my mind.

There was silence in the room. Kieran didn't answer me, but I didn't care at all. My consciousness and emotion seemed to be clear but also numb. I relaxed myself and leaned against his chest. Kieran's strong heartbeat made me comfortable and brave, and I nearly forgot that he was the superior and scary Kieran.

I just mumbled to myself, "You don't know how much I loved him. For him, I could do anything. Even asked to die, I would never hesitate. But now, I will get angry as long as I see him and I don't want to talk to him anymore. In the past, I was afraid that he would be angry and misunderstand me, because I wanted to leave good impression to him."

"Kieran, can you understand this feeling?" I said and tittered, "I forget that you don't have any interest in love. How can you understand? But it is not beneficial to understand it. Why shall we let others hurt ourselves and make us painful?"

I was not clear about how long I had kept talking. I only felt that my eyelids were getting heavier and I closed my eyes.

In the dark, there was a pair of bloody eyes wide open. Then he sat up with displeasure but no further movement. Later, he raised his hand and hesitated to touch my hair.