Sold To The Untouchable Alpha novel Chapter 54

[Arissa's POV]

Moans escaped my lips as Ivan's lips caressed the skin of my neck and breasts, alternating between the two. One of his hands cupped my free breast while the other worked my clit expertly.

Fuck, it felt amazing to be here with him after everything I had gone through.

Despite my attempts to calm down, I was still pretty damn shaken. Maybe using physical contact as a way to reassure myself was wrong, but it was all I wanted right now. Something in me deep down screamed for Ivan and I was helpless against it.

"Ivan, faster." I moaned, digging my nails into his back. "This isn't enough."

Closing my eyes, I tried to get lost in the pleasure, but the fear that lingered continued to claw at me.

"Are you okay?" Ivan asked, sitting up and meeting my gaze. "You're very tense."

Letting out a sigh, I sat up and pulled my knees up to my chest.

"Honestly?" I asked slowly, eyeing him.

"Always." Ivan responded gently.

"I'm not okay." I began. "I don't know what is happening to me and I'm worried that I may lose control again." A shiver rushed through me as I remembered that dark place I had been in just moments ago. "Maybe it is better if I leave. I don't want to be a danger to anyone here."

It wasn't only Ivan and his pack I was worried for, it was all wolves. I still hadn't told Ivan about Gillian and his father's plans. I wanted to put it off out of fear of Ivan rushing into a battle with them blindly.

"You aren't going anywhere." Ivan growled. "Why would you even think something like that? Is it because of what happened earlier? Don't worry, I am more than willing to provide you with blood anytime you feel you are about to slip."

At his words, I felt my heart constrict painfully in my chest. When did this man decide that he would go to the ends of the earth for me?

Even thinking about allowing someone in like that scared the hell out of me. How was he able to do it so easily?

"What has gotten into you?" I asked, narrowing my gaze. This was just too much to process. "If you think you owe me because I slept with you, you don't. I'm just trying to get my freedom that was promised."

I watched quietly as Ivan's jaw twitched and his lips pressed into a thin line. Even his eyes that had been sparkling brightly before were slowly darkening. Uh oh, it seemed that I pissed him off with what I had said.

"You think I'm doing this to thank you?" He asked coldly. "Do you really think I need to thank a woman for sleeping with me? Especially when I have many of them throwing themselves at me willingly?"

I knew he had a point, but the stubborn part of me that didn't want to let anyone in stayed put. I couldn't possibly accept that this outstanding man may actually have real feelings for me.

"Then why?" I asked quietly, averting my gaze from his out of fear of seeing something I didn't want to. "Why are you suddenly being so gentle and why did you come look for me when I was kidnapped?"

Did I really want to hear his response? No, but I couldn't stop my damn mouth.

"Do you really have to ask?" Ivan countered, grabbing my chin.

Gasping, I felt myself stiffen as he pressed his lips against mine ever so gently.

"Do you understand now?" He asked, looking deep into my eyes.

"No," I whimpered, trying to control the sudden need that raced through me. "I don't understand."