Submission novel Chapter 38

Have you ever seen yourself in the mirror?...

From an angle, you have never seen before...

The angle which you can't see normally...

And wondered...

That's me.

That's also me.

But I don't look like that.

That's how I feel.

That's how my situation feels.

I guess I should not be surprised after all. I am bound to this house, my past, by a red circle and no matter how much I try, I'll be dragged into this red circle again and again even if I run far away.

I don't like calling this place home anymore because it never was. Home is not the place where you live with your family or friends or relatives. Home is where your heart is and my heart was smashed to clouds of dust in this very place. I don't exactly loathe this place but neither do I want to be here.

Undecided and lost, I went towards the kitchen to find nothing but memories. My footsteps were a little too loud for my ears in this piercing silence. Silence has never been so engulfing, so malicious and overpowering. My footsteps stopped on the doorway. I saw enough.

The yellow cabinets and the granite counters, the island in the middle, empty sinks and closed windows. Everything was empty and it was home. Home to cobwebs of dust and the lost past.

I turned around and moved away from the room where my mother used to spend most of her time when I was an undisturbed kid. I came back onto the foyer and stared at the dusty doorway and my handprints on them from not long ago.