Supreme Magus novel Chapter 328

Pain was Lith’s oldest friend, yet it took him a few seconds to recover.

"I thought you wouldn’t leave before spring." Lith was looking forward spending the winter months together at her home again.

"The army is not the academy, silly." Phloria’s laugh was low and joyless.

"There are boot camps all year round, so that people can enlist as soon as they become adults."

"Why didn’t you tell me this earlier? Why now? Can’t you delay it?"

"What would have changed?" Phloria sighed.

"We would have spent the time we had left arguing before you accepted my decision, as I know you will." She slowly caressed his face.

"Then you would be sulking the whole time. This way we had our happiness. As for your other questions, I need to go as soon as possible. Not because of my family, nor for the army. For myself." Phloria stared at the moon glowing up in the sky. Her voice was steeled with resolve.

"Ever since I joined the academy, I fancied myself a leader. Yet right from the mock exam I found myself lacking. Resolve, charisma, killing intent, tactics. Name one, I was good only on paper. All my training rarely survived contact with the enemy.

"I was either too scared, surprised, or reluctant to kill to be a good leader. Our whole group relied more on you than on me, myself included. Whenever something bad happened, I always looked up to my family and to you for help.

"After Yurial’s death, I only found solace from my inner demons while in your company and that made me think. I’m not as strong and independent as I always wanted to be. I don’t feel complete as a person.

"I’m tired of feeling helpless. I need to change, or at least give my all trying. Joining the army will give me this opportunity. Failure or success will depend completely on myself."

Lith could feel his heart going through its usual routine. Pain first, anger later.

’It’s her life. She has every right of doing what she thinks is best for herself.’ Lith thought.

’It’s exactly what I have been planning to do from the beginning. I never changed my mind, not even after we got together. I knew this moment would come. Then why am I suffering so much?’

’Because you have ended up caring for them more than you ever anticipated. Especially Phloria.’ Solus replied.

’You can’t get angry at her. It would be petty and hypocritical.’

"I don’t know where life will lead me. Even worse, I don’t know what will become of you." Phloria kept staring at Mogar’s moon. That night it was of an unusual pale blue color, giving the night the feel of a fairy tale.

"You said it yourself, remember? I guess you are the right person for me, but we met at the wrong time of our lives. There are too many variables, we are both too ambitious to plan ahead and shackle ourselves with a pointless long distance relationship.

"I want to be happy. I want you to be happy. We can’t waste our time waiting for each other and fantasizing about what might have been. Life is short, Yurial taught us that. Maybe we’ll meet again in the future.