TABOO novel Chapter 27

MY STEP-BROTHER

" Is it pretty fucked up I'm sexually attracted to Jude?" I asked my best friend, Simone.

We were in my bedroom and Simone was going through a porn magazine she stole from her older brother's bedroom.

" Jude? You mean your step brother?" She asked, looking away from the magazine to stare at me.

" Yeah. My step brother." I said and bit my lip as I applied nail polish on my toes.

" Isn't he the hot nerd? He's like always shy and acts like someone who's never fucked anyone before." Simone said, flipping through the porn mag while glancing at them for a long minute.

" Yeah. He's not that much of a nerd though."

" How old is he again? 22? And he's in college right?"

" Yeah. Both are correct. God, he's so hot. And sometimes shy but he's fucking hot. It annoys me that our parents are married."

" People fuck their step-brothers, it's no big deal. It's not like you guys are even related." Simone says with a sly smirk on her lips. She doesn't look at me.

I sigh and roll my eyes. Jude and I might not be related but we're kind of related through our parents. My father died when I was ten. He was a great dad and always tried to provide for me. Mom married Jude's father two years ago when I was sixteen. Jude and I aren't really that close but he's a great guy. Quiet, shy, a collected guy and a secret nerd. He's in college and he's four years older than me.

The first time we met, he was pretty awkward. He wasn't expecting an additional number in his family since his father recently married my mother. I noticed I had a thing for Jude nearly a year ago. I find myself staring at him frequently and when no one is watching. I've even touched myself with his picture planted in my brain. There are times I've thought about seducing him but Jude's never looked at me like that. He sees me as his younger sister. His kid sister and I hated that.

" Why don't you invite him to Sabrina's party?"

" Why?" I asked Simone. She sighed, closed the magazine and sat up, with her full attention on me.

" Because you want to have sex with him."

" Are you seriously encouraging this?" I asked Simone, covering my nail polish.

" Encouraging what? Dude you just said you wanted to bang your step brother not too long ago." She said loudly.

" Fucking shut up. Are you aware he's around?" I glare at her.

She chuckled and threw her hand in the air in surrender.

" You want Jude or not?" She asked quietly now. I bit my lip, thinking.

" Yeah."

" Then what's up? Is this about Peter? Your douchebag boyfriend."

" He's not a douchebag. You need to learn to like him. I love you both, you two need to learn to like each other."

" Whatever. As I was saying, Sabrina is throwing a party. I'm not dumb, I'm pretty sure you've already invited Pete. Since we're all going, it will be nice to invite your step-brother. You can easily seduce him at the party. You're pretty, boys hardly say no to you." Simone said and stood up.

She stood in front of my full length mirror to check herself out.

" What if he said no?"

" He won't." Simone said. I nodded and picked up her porn magazine.

" And why exactly did you steal this from your brother's bedroom again?"

" Well, I wanted to spite him. And I was horny." Simone said and turned to wink at me.

I laughed.

Later that evening, mom cooked dinner in the kitchen while I assisted her. Jude was in his bedroom. He's a cartoonist. The few times we've had a real conversation, he said he wanted to make his own comics and maybe sell his ideas to film production companies to turn them into an animation movie. Jude's father, Bill, was in the living room, watching a basketball game. Ever since he married my mother, he always treated her nice and even treated me like his own daughter. They were good people.

Now I was thinking why did I want to ruin my mother's new found happiness by thinking about sleeping with Jude, a boy I considered my older brother.

I groaned and that seemed to catch my mother's attention.

" You okay there, honey?" Mom asked.

I turned to look at her and flashed her a small smile.

" Yeah. I'm fine."

" And how's senior year coming? I guess you can't wait to get out of highschool." She said, I laughed.

" You can't even imagine." I chuckled.

" I'm happy you're fully becoming an adult. I just want you to be careful with boys. I know you're always careful but I want you to be extremely careful." Mom advised.

I wished I could tell her I was no longer a virgin and that I lost my virginity to this cocky, arrogant quarterback two years ago so that she would stop advising me about men and sex. She would freak out, and obviously she won't look at me with that good daughter's eye ever again. But I couldn't. I need to maintain that good girl facade. It kept my mother sane.

" Speaking of leaving highschool, there's this party this weekend and I was invited, including Simone." I said.

My mother didn't like Simone. She saw Simone as a bad influence, probably the bad child that wanted to ruin her precious daughter's life. Little did she know.

" Simone?" Mom frowned.

" She's not bad."

" Honey, I know I said you are finally growing into a woman, but highschool parties? I don't trust these teenagers."

" Mom. It's just a party and nothing is going to happen."

" Is Kylie planning to attend a party this weekend?" Bill asked from the living room.

" Yeah. Honey." Mom answered.

" Then let her. She's a grown woman and she could take care of herself."

Mom sighed. I did a victory dance in my head.

" If you're that worried, I could ask Jude to accompany me. He's gonna drive me to the party, stay with me and drive me back. How does that sound?"

" That's a good idea, Kylie. At least Jude can step out of the house for once. Since his summer vacation, he's barely out of that room. You should talk to him, Kylie." Bill said.

Only if they knew I wanted to invite Jude to the party in the first place.

" Do you still need my help? I need to talk to Jude about the party." I asked Mom.

" No. Go ahead."

I smiled at my mom and left the kitchen. I stopped outside Jude's bedroom. It's a little open, revealing his bedroom. He was sitting on his bed, pencil in hand as he sketched something on a paper. I knocked once and slowly pushed open his door. Jude saw me and quickly slipped the paper he was sketching on under his pillow, not before I caught a glimpse of the drawing. It looked like a sketch of me. But I was naked.

Was Jude thinking about what I looked like when naked and then he sketched it on a paper? He rubbed his nape and avoided my gaze.

" Hey Jude."

" Hi. Kylie. What's up?" He tried not to stutter.

" Nothing really. Sorry I just barged in. I guess you were pretty busy." I gestured to his sketch hidden beneath his pillow.

He laughed nervously.

" No. Of course not. Do you need something?" He asked.

For a brief moment Jude's eyes took in my body clad in yellow tank top and mid thigh Jean shorts. He coughed and looked away.

" I was wondering if you'd like to accompany me to a party this weekend. I mean you don't have to… but my mom, and your dad thought it'd be nice if you accompany me to the party just to make sure I don't get drunk off my ass and kiss random strangers." I smiled at Jude as he stared at me.

" They said that?"

" Well the part where I said they want you to accompany me, yes. Getting drunk and kissing random strangers, fuck no." I chuckled. " You really don't have to come. But I want you to come with me. Not as a bodyguard or babysitter but because I want you to come have fun with me."

Jude seemed to consider what I said because he bit his lip in thought. I stared at his full pink lips and wondered what they would taste like in between my own lips. Jude was good looking. He has a boyish look but he was built. I've never seen him with his shirt off but the day I hugged him, I felt his strong muscles. He was made in perfection with his strong abs.

Damn…

Jude said something but I didn't catch it.

" Hmm?" I raised my eyebrows and stared at Jude. I missed what he said because I was busy eye fucking him.

" I said sure, I would go with you. To party with you."

" Yaay." I smiled. " Thank you. You won't regret it."

" Of course." Jude gave me a small smile.

I bit my lip, stared at Jude for a while and the sketch he was hiding underneath the table. I smirked, Jude gulped. He was uncomfortable and I didn't want to make him uncomfortable.

" I'm gonna go." I said.

" Sure."

I gave him one last smile and left his room. As I went to bed that night, I thought about why Jude would sketch me naked. Did he want me as much as I wanted him? Did he like me too? That would be good, right.

I pulled my phone out to text Simone the new discovery.

ME: Hey bitch.

SIMONE: Hey slut. How come you're not sleeping? Staying awake and fuckin' your nerd brother in your head?

I laughed and typed a response.

ME: Fuck you. He agreed to go to Sabrina's party with me. And guess what?

SIMONE: You seduced him?

ME: Well... something more interesting. You know he's a cartoonist…well I saw a sketch of me naked.

SIMONE: He drew you naked? Has he seen you naked?

ME: Fuck no. I was also surprised. Does that mean…