TABOO novel Chapter 42

" Have you ever thought about a third-party joining you and Lucas during sex before?" Anita asked, smirking at me as she raised her eyebrows in a questioning gesture.

I moved my focus from the TV as I turned to look at Anita. My other best friend, Regina, just giggled as she chewed her popcorn.

" What do you mean by a third-party?" I asked.

" You know what I'm talking about, Hope. Like a threesome." Anita emphasized.

" No shit."

" What?" Regina said. " Don't tell me you've never imagined another guy having sex with you, including your boyfriend at the same time."

I blushed and looked back at the TV. I'm not the most experienced girl out there, but I sure as hell have thought about a threesome. I've thought about sharing my fiancé, Lucas, with some other guy. In fact, there is this particular guy I'm so ashamed to mention.

" You don't have to be shy, Hope. I know you like Ian. I see the way you look at him. I know you want him to fuck you." Anita said.

I turned to look at her as I shot her a playful glare.

" You can't say that." I whispered.

" Say what? That you have a big fucking crush on your boyfriend's twin brother? It's cool, Gina is aware. We all are. We see the way you look at him, and during one of our sleepovers you whispered his name in your sleep." Anita said.

I bit my lip and looked away.

" Hmm… you little thot." Regina said, giggling.

" It's no big deal, Hope. We've all been there. Every single girl wants to fuck Ian. God, he's so hot and quiet. He's shy, but fuck, he's good in bed."

God, she sounded like Alison from pretty little liars.

" Please don't tell me you've been involved with him." I said, staring at my two best friends.

" Yeah, I have." Anita said. " Twice. First one was a solo sex. We did it in his apartment, and the second was Regina and I. A fucking threesome. He was hot, and big, and a sex machine."

" God…" I shook my head and lifted my legs from the floor as I pulled it to my chest.

" So you really wanted Ian inside you, yeah?" Regina spook. I ignored them, thinking about my fiance's twin brother in between my legs, peppering kisses up my neck with his mouth around my nipples.

" You fucking slut! You're thinking about it." Anita said laughing, including Regina.

" Fuck you guys so much. I'm going to get a drink." I said and stood up as I walked to the kitchen.

Okay, a little story about me. I'm 24 and I'm engaged to Lucas Sawyer. This hot accountant that I fell in love with three years ago when I was still in college. He was the best thing that's ever happened to me. Lucas and I were like opposites considering the fact that I was a shy, nerdy goody two shoes, and I've never really liked parties, and I sometimes secretly fucked my celebrity crushes in my head, and I've always craved a threesome but I didn't have the balls to get myself involved.

Lucas and I dated for a year before we finally had sex. He popped my cherry to be precise and I loved him. And then there's his twin brother. This super, sexy, hot lawyer, with the body of Gods, blonde haired, five foot 7, well chiseled, with a smile like the angels, and the eyes like the ocean. He's everything my sex life have been missing. I've secretly fantasized about the two of us doing the dirty without Lucas really finding out. I knew I couldn't have him. I was in love with his younger twin brother and we were getting married this summer.

Ian was nothing like Lucas. In fact, Ian was more like me. He barely partied and he's so committed to his job, and since I knew the guy he barely slept around. He dated this millionaire's daughter for a while and they splitted about a year ago and yet I barely ever see him with any woman. And the most annoying part was as much as I've always secretly admired him and lusted over him, he never sees me as anything more than just his future sister in law. The girl his brother was about to marry.

It was fucking annoying.

" Hey girls." I heard the voice of my fiancé from the living room. I quickly took a sip from my bottle of cold water to stop me from blushing.

" Hey." My best friends echoed.

My fiancé, Lucas, was good looking. He was hot, but he was nothing like his older twin brother. They looked like normal brothers and they didn't even look alike. Ian was two inches taller than Lucas. Where my fiancé lacked a good amount of physical fitness, Ian had a lot of it. It was impossible not to lust after him.

" Hi, Ian." I heard Anita's voice.

Ian's here? Shit!

" Hey." His deep, gruff, but yet sexy voice greeted my friends.

" Where's my birthday girl?" Lucas called. I guessed that was my cue to join them.

I closed the bottle of water and dropped it on the kitchen counter before joining them in the living room. My eyes first landed on Ian who was looking around his brother's apartment like it was the first time he was here. I haven't seen him for a while though. I heard from Lucas Ian traveled to Italy for a job and I guess he was back. God, he looked better than I last saw him. His chin and jaws were peppered with blonde facial hair. He spotted a dark brown jacket and black pants. God, he was gorgeous.

" Hey, baby." Lucas greeted, wrapping his arms around me as he kissed me.

" Hey." I whispered into Lucas's ear as I hugged him back. My eyes landed on Ian's blue orbs that were already staring at me.

He surprisingly gave me a small smirk.

" You're home. How was your outing?" I asked Lucas as we pulled apart.

" Great. And guess who's back?" Lucas said with a big smile on his face as he acknowledged his older brother.

" Hi, Hope." Ian greeted me.

I blushed a little and I hated myself for it.

" Hey Ian. You're back. How was your trip?"

" Good. You look beautiful." Ian said, and he surprised me again by hugging me.

I stilled at once, with my hands hanging loose beside me, and my heart doing a backflip. This was the first time we were hugging. Ian's never been the most social person out there so there was no reason for a hug. We only talked sometimes and gave each other a handshake, and not a hug. Feeling a little awkward and taken aback, I hugged Ian back as he pressed me against his hard body.

Fucking hell. What I would give to just run my fingertips on his solid chest.

" All you have to do is say the words." Ian whispered into my ear as he pulled away, leaving me breathless and dumbfounded.

What did he mean by all I had to do was just say the words? Did I just say that out loud? Me willing to give anything to have my fingertips on his skin.

I am losing my mind.

Ian gave me a secret wink as Lucas said something. My best friend's giggled amongst themselves as they stood up.

" We're gonna leave. Big day tomorrow at the office." Anita said as she grabbed her bag.

" See you, Hope. We're gonna talk more about that stuff tomorrow at work." Anita winked at me as she left with Regina.

" So who's hungry?" Ian asked when we heard the front door shut.

***

" You know, I was wondering…" Lucas said later that night.

We were both in our nightwear and cuddled up against each other in bed. His arm was around my waist and my hand was running alongside his stomach.

" What?" I whispered.

" Have you ever thought about sharing me with someone? Like a guy?"

" What?" I sat up at once.

Why would he ask me that? What was I supposed to say? And why was he even asking me that?

" You don't have to freak out, honey. Sharing me with someone, or me sharing you with someone doesn't mean I don't love you. I do and I'll always love you." Lucas said as he sat up and cupped my cheek.