The Alpha’s Contract novel Chapter 320

"We talked about it, but then Jenson happened. Damien doesn't get my sorrow and I'm starting to think that our bond is broken."

She screws up her face. "The advice I was given was to talk."

"I am talking."

"To your mate, Raven. He's the one that needs to understand you. He's the one that can read your mind, can feel what you are feeling."

"Then why doesn't he get it."

"Because you were a twin who shared twin wolves. I mean, I don't even fully understand how it works. I don't even understand who decides who gets who. I'm still learning a lot of stuff, but maybe, if you talk to Damien instead of shutting him out."

"I'm not shutting him out."

She sighs. "You've barely spoken to him. He has made sure you slept, you were fed, that you changed your clothes. He has given you the space you needed to deal with the situation. He made sure you left the hospital even if it was only for a few minutes to make sure you were getting some fresh air. You are wrong about your bond being broken."

I frown, I hadn't really thought about that. somehow in my haze of making sure everything was in place for my brother, I had missed everything everyone was doing. "Since when did you get so wise?" I muse

She gets up off the floor, takes Evrin from me and settles into the large chair by the window. “You aren't asking about being wise, are you. You want to know what's happening with my darkness?”

I nod and scoop up a begging Logan. "No one talks about it. Are you okay?"

“Damien and Mallory made me believe that I had to fight it. That I have to hold it back and stop myself from going insane. Even Abraxas said something along a similar line but Nyx was never trying to hurt me. Not in the way everyone thinks.”

“I don’t follow.”

“She was frustrated. She had spent years not being able to communicate with me and then when she did, I kept trying to shut her down.”

“So you were never going to go dark?”

“I could have, if I had continued not to accept Nyx, I would have eventually gone Rogue.” She frowns and bites on her bottom lip. “The darkness that makes the others Rogue is different, they become their Lycan, But I have a seperate one. Nyx has her own thoughts, opinions and feelings. We had to become one. It was the only way.”

“Dane mentioned that you were practising?”