The Alpha's Young Mate novel Chapter 36

Rosalind's POV

As soon as Clayton was gone a ache in my chest started to stab me. It feels like he is leaving again for five years, even when I know he's not.

Nicole turns to me, "C'mom, let's go do something fun!"

I stand and stare in the direction Clayton went, just waiting for him to come back.

"Ro?" Nicole asks. I look at her, "Yea sorry, I didn't hear what you said?"

Nicole sighs, "I know you miss him, but you need to trust that he will be fine without you for a few days."

I don't know if I'll be fine without him for a few days - this last week with him back made me so happy, I don't want to let go of that, not even for a second.

I turn and look at Nicole, "How do you go for a few days without your mate?" I ask her. My stomach begins to aches as I start to feel nauseous.

She looks down at the ground, "You don't really. I miss Ryker

and I'm actually going back to my pack tomorrow because of it."

"You're leaving tomorrow?" I ask. I don't want Nicole to leave, she's awesome.

"Yea, but I'll visit often!" She says smiling before grabbing my wrist and pulling me towards the pack house.

When we get inside she brings me to Clay's office. I feel a little more comfort now that I can smell him, even though he's not here.

I close my eyes and inhale his faint scent while I can hear Nicole digging through some stuff.

"Hey Rose, look at this," she says. I open my eyes and see her holding a book.

"What's that?" I ask as she smiles.

"When Clay and I were young, he always had journals."

So this is his journal?

Nicole hands it to me and I open it, revealing the first page.

I start to read,

I found my mate today, she's not what I thought she would be. She's four, at first I was going to reject her, but then our eyes met and I couldn't even bare the thought.

I skip past pages and open it to the middle, that reveals when I was eight.

Rose woke me up at 4 this morning, I swear if it would've been anyone else I would've killed them right then and there. But it was my adorable little mate so I had to deal with it. I'd do anything for her.

I smile as I read what he writes. Nicole then says over my shoulder, "This whole journal must be about you!"

With my curiosity, I skipped to the first year of him being gone.

I can feel her pain, she's really upset that I am gone. Her feelings are overwhelming me with her depression and I want to go back to her, but I can't, not yet.

I then go to when he was gone for four years,

Only one more year until I can come home to Rose. Her sadness is just killing me! I want to go back so bad and let her know I am here for her, but I don't know if that'd be a good idea.