The Bully's Obsession novel Chapter 14

　　I locked myself up in my room as soon as I got home....

　　I entered straight to my bathroom , my dull reflection stared back at me in the mirror, I turned on the tap and splash cold water over my face and hair....

　　What was wrong with me....

　　I've never felt so humiliated and disgusted with myself like I did right now......

　　I knew it was exactly what he wants, I knew i was feeling the exact way he wanted but that didn't ease the shame and disappointment i felt at myself

　　I hated him so much, how could my body burn with so much need when he touched me?

　　It was like he'd inserted a fire inside of me...

　　Memories of him lapping at my juices , his tongue driving me to an orgasm flashed in my head....

　　I tried to suppress them but they just kept coming.....

　　I stormed out of the bathroom and plunged on my bed , my mind was in the state of a total mess...

　　I skipped going down for dinner, I wasn't in the mood to see anyone.....

　　I just wanted to be left alone...

　　I laid on my stomach , my butt still too raw and tender from all that spanking.

　　I closed my eyes trying to force myself to sleep, perhaps when I wake up I would forget everything...

　　Sleep wouldn't come....

　　The area between my legs were tingling...

　　I unconsciously slid my fingers into my pants and began to massage myself slowly, I didn't feel anything, not like the huge pressure I felt when Hayden touched me.....

　　I caught myself at what I was doing, i quickly retracted my fingers feeling as guilty as ever....

　　A shaky breath escaped my mouth as I closed my eyes trying to catch some good sleep, but my dreams were hunted by a certain green eyed boy.....

　　It was no longer a sweet dream

　　He turned it into a dark nightmare...

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　　I thought about skipping breakfast but mom would hear nothing of it...

　　She kept piling my plates up until she was thoroughly satisfied

　　"Mom I can't...."

　　"Of course you can't, shouldn't you be on a diet?" Ashley remarked

　　Trust my sister to take my self esteem lower than it already was...

　　Mom scowled at her

　　"What diet? I think she's perfectly fine , not everyone needs to be a broom stick"

　　My lips tugged in a small smile despite how depressed I felt inside

　　"Which reminds me Gracie, your birthday is coming up next week, what would you like? We could throw a party so you can invite your friends and classmates " she clapped her palms beaming widely....

　　"Uh...I don't think so " I replied...

　　Mom still doesn't understand that I only have three friends, I'm totally not popular in any way, I bet if my other classmates even notices if I came to school or not....

　　"Then what do you want? Your dad will also be returning to visit us, isn't it great?

　　I looked up at that, dad was coming back? Its been quite long ....he was always so busy with work , if he really makes it to my birthday then it would really be wonderful.

　　"Anything else would be fine " I replied casually taking a bite of my scrambled eggs

　　"So boring , what's wrong with having a party , you are just too much sometimes !" Ashley huffed out rolling her eyes dramatically

　　This was one of the reasons we never got along even as children, she was totally different from me and never understands me at all.....

　　I was used to it by now though, her taunts were right now the least of my problems....right now on my mind was the dreadful feeling of meeting him again

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　　Staring at Clarissa approaching Lyn and I in a flurry , I knew that something was wrong, her face was quite pale,her eyes red rimmed ,evidence that she'd been crying for some time

　　We hurried towards her , my heart racing in alarm

　　"what's wrong?"

　　"Its Jasper,he was attacked last night "

　　The blood drained out of my face...

　　"W...what do you mean attacked?"

　　She sniffed aloud blinking back tears

　　"His mother called me last night,He's in a coma, he was beaten so badly ,its so severe that he had to be flown out...the doctor's still don't know if he's going to m...make it" her voice cracked at the end as she wiped her tears with a handkerchief...

　　My knuckles turned white from clutching my bag so tightly....

　　Could it be what I was thinking?

　　Only one thought came to mind....could Hayden have done this?

　　How could he do this?

　　My blood fumed with anger , this was really too much!

　　I set on my feet in search for him ignoring the calls they made after me..

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　　I couldn't find him all day, I was beginning to wonder if he was absent ,it was lunch time now and students were rushing to the cafeteria...

　　I kept my books in my locker prepared to go in search for Lyn and Clarissa when I found him......

　　He was in an empty classroom

　　Only he wasn't alone...

　　I stood at the door post not entering inside, they were too busy to notice me right now.