The Bully's Obsession novel Chapter 30

　　Hayden 

　　"when c..can I leave? "

　　"we've already been through this before,  and I won't say it again, you aren't leaving! " I grounded out more harshly than I intended to. 

　　She flinched a little, I noticed she does  that a lot lately , even at the  slightest of my touch.

　　Her lower lips trembled as she blinked back tears

　　I stared at her for a while , she looked so small, fragile and innocent for all the shit that's happened to her . Shits that were caused by me 

　　She was right,  I really was a monster, I couldn't deny that.....no I loved it when people gets scared of me,  because only then would they obey, but it had snapped a nerve hearing it coming directly from  her mouth last night.  

　　I found that I didn't want her to think of me that way, it had.... 

　　It had hurt a forbidden place in me, that I didn't knew still existed..

　　It had made me felt so vulnerable and weak.. 

　　Right now I wondered how her life might have been if I didn't barge into it and wreck it.....smeared it with my hate.

　　I had broken her..

　　but  it hadn't been last night.. 

　　It was way long before that.. 

　　I muttered a curse under my breath as I made my way inside the kitchen .

　　A huge part of me knew she was naive and just got caught up in all of these

　　Even at that I couldn't let her go,  she was fucking light but I tainted her with my darkness . Now there was no getting out of it for the both of us...We are forever stuck with each other, I'll keep her with me no matter what it takes 

　　Thinking about it, even without the revenge I had against her father,Matteo, she would have still belonged to me. 

　　I still would have found her and claim her as mine.

　　She was much different after what happened last night, I could feel the fear radiating from her,  she seemed even more afraid of me if anything... 

　　Well I gave her  reasons enough to.

　　Last night maybe I took things a little over to the extreme... 

　　Hell no .

　　I took it over to the extreme... 

　　I wouldn't have been able to stop myself from taking her last night, I don't regret taking her, that had been bound to happen from the first moment I laid my eyes on her , but I should have been a little more gentler about it. 

　　But my control had snapped at the last moment when she said those words. 

　　I made a simple breakfast of scrambled eggs and bread, yes I can cook,  it was the only thing I learned from mother before she passed away, i made my way back to the dining room.  

　　She didn't look up as I approached,  she kept playing with her fingers nervously ,I arranged the plates in front of her .

　　"Eat" 

　　Her bottom lips trembled slightly but she did as I told her. 

　　I watched as she ate silently,  not for once did she look up at me,  I get the feeling that she was trying to pretend I wasn't here. 

　　The thought bothered me,  it left a tightening sensation in the pit of my stomach 

　　She chewed slowly on the eggs, her tongue darting out to lick her bottom lips , I felt heat pooled at my loins,  I wanted to bend her over the table and sheath myself deep into her, fuck both of our brains out.

　　"W..what about your brother? " she suddenly asked 

　　One of my brows arched up in surprise , I didn't think she would want to start a conversation with me, I couldn't guess why she was asking...