The Dragon Prince's Forbidden Affair novel Chapter 5

I Refuse

I took a few steps away from him. "I just got here... I don't want to make any trouble for the sake of fun. Apparently, I might have to work for you for most of my life so let's not make it weird..." I'd have to work for Sadia too when they get married so that'd make it even worse.

Lexus walked back in front of me, and we were practically pressed against each other. "You'll have to work for me for a long time, a part of that is doing whatever I say." He seemed like the type to abuse his power and position which was disappointing.

I was going to agree because it was the easier thing to do, but my ex's words ran through my head. 'You're just too submissive and that's not really what I'm looking for.' "And what if I let the king and queen know?" I didn't want Lexus viewing me the same way and getting bored of me. I also didn't want to be the woman he cheated on his fiancée with.

Lexus grabbed my face by my jaw but surprisingly gently. "Fair enough." He let go of my face and backed away. Something told me that he didn't actually care if I told his parents, he was humoring me. "Let me know when you change your mind Aqua." Hearing him say my name sent a chill through my body. "No one will notice we're mates. We used to be able to tell when two people were mates by sensing it but it's so rare now, they won't really realize it."

I watched him leave and I replayed everything in my head but in the scenario where I would have let him do whatever he wanted to me. I was fine with my choice not to because I had so much to think about and so much I didn't know.

I got on my bed and stared out the window at the dragons flying in the sky. I bounced my leg around against the bed as I watched. This was all really happening. Now that I knew Lexus I didn't miss my ex in a weird way. My heartbreak is almost nonexistent. I might have had a new heart break because it's not like I could be with Lexus. The more I thought about it the more I questioned why I couldn't. Maybe he loved Sadia and I'm not worth leaving her for. I had only just got here and there was already drama.

Ugh I didn't know Lexus well so why did I feel like this? It had to solely be the mate bond. I can't really feel like this about someone I just met. As time went on, I paced, stared out the window, and laid in bed thinking. I concluded that I could hate Lexus instead. It's a strong emotion too although the problem is that it would get in the way of work. Maybe I wasn't the holder, and I could live the rest of my life in this kingdom not working in the castle.

The only thing I was really scared of was this place being worse than the human world. I didn't belong there and now I know it was more than the fact that my brain was differently wired. It was also because I was an entirely different species. The only thing I could be sure about was that I was going to work hard for a better life here. That's why I took the risk in the first place.