The Red Wolf's Mate novel Chapter 3

I made my way to bed, still thinking about how bold I was with Nathan. Despite feeling sexual arousal more often than I probably should have, I never did anything like that. I was never so forthcoming. I typically tried to control all of my emotions and have become quite well at it. I have to be, else I would be an emotional mess all the time. Most emotions I could control, but those on the extremes were much harder. The grief over the last year, for example, had been extremely difficult. If I didn’t use some sort of emotional control techniques, I would literally be a tornado of emotions all the time. Think of a moody teenager but on steroids. It would not be a pretty picture.

I took a deep breath as I shut the door. I enjoyed the kiss greatly, as it had been far too long since I have kissed anyone, and I can feel the waves of desire coursing through my body. With everything that was going on, having any type of contact with someone of the opposite sex was not something that I had thought about, although after the kiss I had felt like I was neglecting myself because of hiatus.

“Damn it!” I curse myself as I felt the waves of desire pulsing through my body. It was building and becoming almost an irresistible feeling.

‘Lela, what should I do?’ I called on Lela for guidance. I knew she can help, or at least I hoped that she could.

‘You know what you can do.’ Lela said as she winked at me. She turned circles in my mind and sent me explicit pictures of Nathan.

‘Lela! Please stop doing that!’ I yelled to her. I knew that she thought that she was helping me, but the images of Nathan touching me in my most intimate places were not very helpful in reducing the sexual desire that I was feeling at the moment.

I sighed and shook my head. Lela was probably right, but I was not sure if self-gratification would truly help with the sexual desire I was feeling. Deciding that a shower might help, I headed to the bathroom.

I looked in the mirror and noticed my face was still flushed. My cheeks were red and it extended to my neck. I needed to find a way to control this physical reaction. I couldn’t be getting this flushed every time I kiss someone.

As I approached to turn the water on, I decided that this tub was much too appealing and that a bath would be much more relaxing. Making the water hot, I stepped back and removed my clothing. Looking in the mirror, I glanced at my naked form. My nipples were hard still from my arousal and my breathing had yet to fully calm.

Despite myself, I moved my hand up to my breast, cupping the large breast in my hand and running my fingers over my nipple. A sharp intake of breath and a sudden increase in my arousal caused my knees to slightly give out. I stumbled back against the wall but never once remove my hand from my breast, as my fingers still pulled vigorously at my nipple. Bringing my other hand up to my other breast, I grabbed both of them, tugging roughly on my nipples. I caressed the nipples, pulling, rubbing, and tugging on each of them.

I felt a tingling in between legs and a quiet moan escaped my lips. I squeezed my legs together tightly, enjoying the pressure that the bringing my legs together has placed on my most sensitive part.

Noticing that the water has been filled probably too high in the bathtub, I turn off the water and slowly sunk into the tub. The hot water enveloped my body and I felt some of my muscles begin to loosen. Tension in my shoulder started to dissipate and I could feel warmth spreading throughout my body.

As if by instinct, I moved both of my hands back to my breasts and started squeezing. I played hard with the nipples and I could feel my sexual desire continuing to rise. I pinched and tugged aggressively at each nipple. While it should hurt, I did not feel the pain; only the intense pleasure waves that are coursing through me. I began to move one of my hand down my stomach but paused.

‘Do it. You know you need it. It will feel amazing.’ Lela spoke softly in my head. Although human and wolf forms often have different sexual appetites, mine and Lela’s are on the same page. Let’s hope our mate had the same.

Using Lela’s words of encouragement, I continued moving my hand down over my stomach and into my wet folds. Even without the bath, my arousal was dripping from my core.

I ran my fingers along the length of my slit, almost teasing myself as I ran my fingers along the entire length. I was so wet. My desire was so strong. I needed release. And damn did I want it. Slowly, I brough my fingers back to my throbbing bud. I rubbed it slowly, enjoying the sensations that were spreading throughout my body.

My breathing quickened as I continued the assault of my fingers on my clit Tingles of pleasure spread through my center. I wanted so much more. My other hand was on my breast, continuing to squeeze and pull at my nipple. I moved my fingers faster along my throbbing bud, pressure starting to build within my core.