The Shadow Alpha novel Chapter 62

“Allie cat!” Devin groaned from his position at the opposite end of my desk.

“What, Devin?” I sighed, looking up from the stack of application forms I was sorting through.

“Babe, it’s late.” He emphasised sounding increasingly annoyed.

Our little arrangement had worked out fine for the past week with us alternating between both packs, but like all good things, even that had to come to an end. Devin had border patrol throughout the night, while I had to finish organising the permission applications before tomorrow morning.

“Devin, I have to finish these before tomorrow, I’m sorry, but I can’t come over tonight.” I was already frustrated by the amount of paperwork I had to do before Devin insisted that I go to the Full Moon pack house.

“So just bring it and work on it in our office.” He insisted in an obvious tone.

“No Devin, not tonight, please just go I’ll see you tomorrow.” I stated with finality, it was too much hassle to take everything all the way there, only to bring it back in the morning.

Plus, I was waiting for feedback from Oliver on the Crescent Moon pack training. Since I’d gotten caught up in resettling the pack after the Full Moon pack moved back and Devin was occupied with getting everyone stable in the new pack house and catering to their last minute needs, neither of us had time to focus fully on training the group. I chose to hand over the responsibility to Oliver, because not only is he an Alpha blood, but he’s also very well trained.

“Fine.” He stormed out, slamming the door behind him, causing me to sigh.

It’s not like I didn’t want to, because I did, I slept better in Devin’s arms. There was just too much for us to do to make that a reality tonight.

He’ll get over it. I thought, but deep down I knew that things would only get worse if we didn’t figure out a more permanent solution soon.

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“Urgh!” I grunted in exasperation when my eyes became unfocussed for the umpteenth time tonight. Unable to handle it anymore I pushed away from the desk roughly and stood up.

“I need a run.” I muttered to myself as I marched out the door, locking it behind me.

Shadow stood to attention, with that my senses became heightened; the territory was quiet aside from border control and a few forest animals mooching about, doing their business.

‘I missed this.’ Shadow breathed in contentment, she was right, it had been a while since I shifted and I missed it just as much as her.

Sucking in one last breath, I took off between the trees. The air rushing around me felt like silk against my soft fur. The cool air allowed my thoughts to flow freely.

‘Shadow, how are we ever going to make this all work?’ the question had been bouncing around my mind all night as I worked, but nothing made sense. I couldn’t forsake my pack and move to his, nor could he move to mine, leaving his people behind.

‘Sometimes the answers we seek are hidden in plain sight, yet still we fail to see them.’ Her cryptic answer did little to appease me, but I took comfort in the fact that there was a solution, despite my inability to recognise it.

‘You’re lucky that I’m a patient person Shade.’ I chuckled, feeling calmer with every moment that passed.

‘Oh believe me Allison, I know. I love that you’re so calm and logical, I’ve seen a lot in my long life.’ I didn’t doubt that even for a moment.

‘Do you ever wish you were mortal?’ I asked her, curiosity getting the better of me.

‘At first I did, I wished that I was a normal wolf, who could love and have children; despite having a complete soul, I still felt lonely. As years went by though, I grew accustomed to the loneliness and somehow made peace with being an immortal soul. After all, there was nothing I could do to change it.’ She explained, I found myself walking slowly through the woods, listening to her soothing voice.

‘What happens after me? Finally you have a mate; your wolf is connected to his. What happens when I die?’ I wondered and felt her smile in return.

‘That my dear is the beauty of our love, we will always be connected. No matter what we will find each other in every life.’ if that wasn’t the most beautiful thing I’d ever heard then I don’t know was.

‘I’m really happy for you Shadow; I’m honoured to have been a part of your journey.’ I truly was, more than anything else.

‘As am I, Allison. I know that you feel a lot that has happened was either your fault or your mistake, but that’s the beauty of fate, not everything that happens is pretty, but every occurrence is a piece in the puzzle of life.’ noticing a large boulder up ahead I sped up to jump onto it.