When they touch me (Shelagh Milano) novel Chapter 20

Artemisia

I’m biting on the nail of my thumb as I’m watching the most ridiculous action movie that I have ever seen.

But still better than the romantic ones they wanted to watch because they thought I would like them.

As Cayden apparently accepted the invitation of Logan and tagged along as well, I assume that I’m now sitting through the most awkward movie night in history.

While Logan had wanted to sit, or rather lie, with me on a large sectional, Cayden had me sitting in one of the recliner chairs next to his.

And Logan ended up sharing the sectional with his brother.

Even if I’m convinced that he would have been cuddling closer to me.

I giggle to myself as I take another handful of popcorn.

Looking over to Cayden, I see him staring at the screen with a frown.

He must find it as ridiculous as I do.

He doesn’t seem very relaxed though, because his posture is totally rigid. I realize that I have not seen him smile once since I talked to him at the lake.

‘Focus on the Alpha, and discard the mutts.’

You have to be fucking kidding me!

Ignoring Cassy’s remark, I scoop another handful of popcorn into my mouth.

I miss his smile though.

Keeping myself from ogling him, I force my eyes onto the screen.

Other than the other two, he is dressed in a suit, really not looking like he was up to a movie night.

And he looks gorgeous.

I think it is rather cute that he came to watch the movie with us, even if I can imagine that he wants to be anywhere else but here.

Giggling to myself, I shift in my seat to lie down further.

Logan must have picked up my sigh, as he lifts himself to look at me. “Are you enjoying the movie, Missy?”

I hold up my thumb and hear him chuckle as I return to pick at my popcorn.

The movie takes forever to finish. And I feel like bursting at all the popcorn and sweets I crammed because of my desperation.

On top of that, I felt restless all the time. I had some anxious feeling that I just couldn’t pinpoint where it came from.

If I didn't know better, I would say that it is some kind of mixture of anger and impatience, but none of them would match the situation that I'm in.

Maybe a little bit because I got aggressive because of the stupidity of the action movie, but it’s far away from feeling this anger.

Thanks to Cayden, I barely get a hug from my mates before I walk back to my quarters with him.

I can see that they are disappointed, and even if I would surely feel embarrassedly anxious, I am a bit disappointed too as I would have wanted something more to happen as well.

Goddess, I’m slowly going crazy.

Climbing the stairs next to Cayden in awkward silence makes it hard for me to push down the urge to say something stupid.