Yes, Mr Knight novel Chapter 35

I sat on the couch in my living room with my blush coloured woollen throw wrapped around me for comfort...But nothing could really stop the chaos that was going on inside my mind!! It's been days since I've seen Mason,days of sitting at home on my couch mulling through it all.

But what good is it to me?

He didn't call-He didn't text-But neither did I!! I didn't want to make that first move since it's on his terms if he wants this to work. How can he expect to have me in his bed night after night, spending my days with him and him alone and not get attached. He's being selfish and he's not thinking about my feelings,just about his own!

"You look like you're in need of this." Carmen handed me a warm mug and I took it between my hands. The smell of the instant coffee awakened me a little. I haven't been sleeping well."How are you feeling?"

"As bad as I look I'm guessing."I joked, trying to make light of the situation. But Carmen knows me well-She knows when I'm putting on a front."I knew that it was going to end in disaster,but I slept with him anyway."

We all know that I did more than just sleep with Mason Knight,I was stupid enough to fall in Love with him. I thought and hoped that I could change him but in the end no one really could.

Carmen sat down on the couch next to me,placing a rectangular pom pom cushion on her lap."You could never have known that it would end like this. It was clear that he was changing,I think he just needed a little more time."

I rolled my eyes with attitude. Not at Carmen-But just at the mention of time."Time-More Time is not something that I can give him. He's either in or he's out!"

Don't cry,Jamie! Be strong!!

"You should tell him!"Carmen sighed, audibly."I know you don't want to see him,But he deserves to know. You can do this without him-But you shouldn't have to."

"I'm scared."I murmured."Mason isn't ready for something like this,he's made it quite clear that he's way too selfish to care about anyone else but himself."

"I understand what you're saying.But that's not your decision to make,Hon." Carmen pulled me closer to her, wrapping both her arms around me just like I had done for her many of times."I'm here for you,I can drive you over there if you like."

I know that it's the right decision,but sometimes the right decision is the hardest one. Seeing Mason again is going to be heart wrenching pain that I would rather avoid but I know I can't.

I was standing in the elevator of steel walls,my bare legs were shaking I was that nervous about seeing him. Damn it,Jamie!! Today of all days,you shouldn't have wore a dress. It gives him easy access and that's definitely not the way I want things to go down. This is just a talk and nothing more.

Harry answered the intercom when I rang Mason's PH apartment and Patrick at the front desk used his

special elevator key and was riding it up with me. I wondered why Harry answered and not Mason? Maybe the two of them are discussing Business or possible talking about Penelope.

"Most likely business!"I spoke out loud, instead of keeping my inside thoughts exactly where they should stay. I'm just having one of those days.

Patrick glanced in my direction."I'm sorry,Miss?"

"Nothing."I mustered a smile."I was just thinking out loud."Like a total idiot. The elevator doors opened and I stepped out and looked back at the man in his forties."Thank you,Patrick."I received a simple nod in return before the doors closed.

I turned back around with a sigh and glanced around the apartment that I've become so familiar with over these past few weeks.The dark tones I've grown to love,because those dark tones were Mason Knight himself. It was exactly how he was feeling on the inside. It's sad really.

I guess I better face the music!

The apartment was silent so I walked down the three steps and stood between the kitchen and living room."Hello!"I called out. Could the two of them be in Mason's home office?

The door opened and Harry walked down the hallway."I'm sorry,Jamie.I didn't hear the elevator. I was just grabbing some things from the office." He looked out of sorts,definitely not his usual smiling self.

"That's okay. I just came by to talk to Mason,Is he home?"I looked behind him,thinking that Mason would walk out of the office any second.

"No,He's not home!"Harry sighed, and rubbed the peppered facial stubble on his face."He's gone,Sweetheart."

He's gone-What does he mean he's gone? Like to work-An expensive bar perhaps. I had a fear inside,telling me that it was much worst than that but I really hope not!

My brows knitted together,in confusion. "He's gone-Where? I-I don't understand what you're saying."Please I beg of you,tell me that he'll be back in thirty minutes with that usual pissed off expression on his face.

"I don't know,Sweetheart. Come sit,let's talk."Harry walked towards the kitchen island and I followed behind him. I sat on the stool that he pulled out for me and he stood at the other side."Do you want something to drink?"

A drink-The least of my worries right now is staying hydrated. I shook my head."I just want to know what's going on."

He looked down at the Marble worktop. "Mason called me last night and told me that he was leaving. He only called to tell me where all the business documents were,he wanted to make sure that I could hold up the business alone."

"He didn't say where he was going?"I was trembling and my heart was pounding in my chest."I mean maybe he wanted some time alone and he's gone on holiday."

This can't be happening!!