A weekend with the Alpha novel Chapter 89

"Asking you to stay was the first step, and when you said you'd think about it, I waited, but never got your response. After a few months of waiting, I knew the time I had was short and doubt set in. Perhaps you didn't feel what I felt, and that was why you didn't reach out as I wanted. If the feeling wasn't the same, then you weren't my mate, and that made me move on to find my true mate. Not long after I met Nicole Kent, the daughter of the alpha of the new age pack and future luna, and we clicked off."

He paused, and I knew he didn't want to speak anymore, but he had to. I had to know.

"My feelings grew for her, and I believed she was the one, despite the small empty side of me feeling incomplete. She told me she felt the same way I did and received visions that we were meant to be, and I believed her. We moved to the ceremony of mates and we were joined. After mating, rather than the balance of the powers, I felt a block. The deterioration speeded up instead of stopping."

"I knew I had marked the wrong one, and that was my punishment for not following my instinct. She lied to me and sped up my demise. I broke the union and sent her away, never to return a thousand miles from me and my pack. I thought she came with the best of intentions, but I soon realised she didn't. She came hoping to damage my bloodline. The Harts had the strongest bloodline, and that made me the strongest alpha to exist. Many alphas, including her father, wanted that title for themselves, and this was the way to get it. I only found out when it was too late. The damage had been done and I live with it while every day I prepare my pack for my demise. With Zion as my son, the legacy of the pack and our bloodline will be preserved because the same power that flows in me flows in him as well."

In all he said, all I took was if I had reached out to him, perhaps his days wouldn't be as numbered as they were now. If I had confronted him that weekend when I heard him on the phone and have him explain himself, we would have reached an understanding then instead of now. This was my fault, and the guilt crushed me.

"How do you know I am not a mistake on your part? How do you know that I'm your true mate?"

"Because only a true mate would be strong enough to bear the alpha an offspring."

"Oh," was all I said, and I slowly sat down in bed, pondering on everything he had said. He knew I was his true mate the first time he met me at the bar, but finding me with Zion when he came back further confirmed it, yet he stayed off.

I read a lot about werewolves' bond with their mate and how hard it is to control their emotions and feeling around them and yet he somehow controlled himself around me most times we were together.

He had been better than most men and I gave him no credit for it and now all I wanted to do was to be here and right for him.

I placed my forehead against his and stroked his face. "And I will be beside you every step of the way, doing everything that I have to."

"Thank you."

"I did nothing."

"You just gave me the courage to keep fighting and not give up. That is everything." he leaned in and kissed my lips again.