Alpha's New Girl novel Chapter 32

"Its OK. I know. I'm just thinking about something."

"About Grace?"

"No. About a dream I had."

"What is it about?"

"Me. It was just weird."

"I feel like you aren't telling me something."

"Don't worry about it." I was about to aruge but she started kissing me and I lost concentration.

Grace

I can feel her happiness. It's so pure and I want it. I want what she has. A mate that loves me. But it can't happen. Hes gone. All I have is Zane. And he left me. I can feel him. I can feel all of this shit.

I'm mad. But yet... I'm happy to see my old friend happy. Maybe I'm sad. Sad that I can't have anything.

One bullet. And she'll die. No more pain. No more sorrow. Just bliss.

My hand twitched on my desk. I opened it up and found my pistol. Silver. I forgot it was silver and my hand burned. I didn't shout, just flinched away. My white gloves laid on my lap. As I shoved my hands into them I felt sad. Depressed. And maybe even hurt. A tear fell and I wiped it off the gun. My gloves protected me from the silver.

I started humming a song. A song that didn't make any sense like my life.

My sanity. Maybe its coming back to me. Compassion and empathy. Two words that I used to love.

Lydia

Somethings wrong. What is it?

My feeling of doom that I can't escape. What's going to happen? When I finally find something worth living. I don't want to be scared anymore. I don't.

Fay

"Ash. My parents are coming." I said trying to speak clearly.

"Here?"

"No. To the North Pole. Of course here!" I said getting impatient.

"OK. I was just making sure. What are you pregnant or something?" He said in a teasing voice.

"No! I'm just hungry!" My stomach growled as I spoke. We bursted out laughing.

"OK. I'm going to make someone down stairs make us food."

"Wow. Such a gentlemen." I say rolling my eyes.

"Yep. Tell me about."

"Jason! Make my mate and I some food!" He shouted down the hallway.

"I want to get drunk tonight then," Lydia said already walking out of the room. Jason followed her like a lost puppy.

"Fay, come on. Lets go already," Celia said a little irritated with how long it was taking.

"You guys go. I need to do something first. Catch you guys later," I sighed.

Just like that everyone left. Everyone but Ash.

"Why are you staying?" He asked his eyes raking over me as if he could find the answer.

"I need to do something. I'll be there in an hour," I gave him a quick peck and pushed him on his way.

I waited for him to walk away, out of the building from my window, before opening my desk. A piece of paper and pen laid waiting for me to write the first words that would form, possible, the beginning of my demise.

Fay Fortua's Will

Ash

Without Fay the bar was a drag. All these hot girls would try to seduce me into bed and I would growl a warning. After awhile no one but Jason and Zane would be with me.

Lydia, Katie, and Celia were on the dance floor singing to the outrageously loud music. When ever a guy would approach them Zane and Jason would flinch. Luckily Katie would make them back off with one death glare.

I was a little sad because Katie was the only one who hasn't found her mate yet. Not that she'll ever admit that she cares. She'll say that she doesn't need one and that men are a waste of time, unless you want sex. She's like a female me before I met Fay.

I can't wait for her to eat her words when she meets him. I looked at the clock worried. Fay hasn't walked in and its been about an hour. I'm leaving.