Carrying His Heir While Fighting His Lies novel Chapter 63

Ava'S POV

"You don't want to move on. You have enjoyed the pain you get from your old memories." His words hit me hard this time.

My sudden anger rose to hear him, and I gritted my teeth.

His honest remark somehow touched my heart. I know for a fact that I don't want to let those memories fade away. Not because I am loving this pain, but because those are the only best memories I had in my life before Bella entered. I am emotionally attached to them, and it's true that I don't want to forget that, not today or tomorrow.

I might not cherish them, as they aren't as sweet as sugar. However, those were the best ones.

My First Man

My First Kiss

My First House

My First Love

My First Touch

Every feeling that I felt for the first time, I cannot forget. I hate Blake, but I can't hate the memories that are connected to him because those were the best ones I had until now.

But how can I tell people what my exact reason is? Because they won't think things through from my perspective, I prefer not to explain and let them think what they want.

"We are home." I look around while hearing him.

I can see it's already a little dark, but it always feels so good to be back home. Home is where I feel peace, and that's what I feel whenever I am here.

But today is a little different. Today I felt a different happiness reaching back home, and now I just want to run inside as soon as possible.

"Thank you, Ivan," I said while turning towards him.

"Pleasure is all mine, my lady." I giggled at hearing from him. This man always has a way of making me smile.

"Are you coming inside?" I asked him while already knowing the answer.

"No, I shall be back by next week, but right now, I have to leave." He said it with a small smile.

I nodded to him. "OK then, see you soon." I said with a small smile that I noticed he wanted to say something but was stopping himself. And honestly, I don't want to hear anything about leaving my past and looking for the future and all that crap, so waving my hand, I walk out of the car and walk towards the house.

I look back when I hear the car speed up towards the main road.

I ran inside the house, walked towards my office, and opened the door, but it wasn't there.

‘Where did I keep it? Last time it was here only, I thought while biting my lower lip.

I don't know why, but I have been getting some different feelings since yesterday, and this uneasiness is not going away. Only one thing can give me peace of mind now. And when I am not getting a hold on it, that makes me more miserable.

I started searching like a madwoman while making a mess everywhere, but I cared less about the mess.

I know for a fact that my breathing is getting uneven, but I care less again.

I entered the room and opened the drawer, but it wasn't there. I ran towards the closet and threw everything out, but I wasn't getting any glimpse of it.

Tears welled in my eyes, and I dropped my head on the shelf, and a few teardroplets dropped to the floor.